Recent content by PrometheusUnbound

No PMO Day 275; no MO Day 81; no SUB Day 11 It's been an intense week. I've been ill but my body has been putting it off due to other concerns. I had come back late from work the evening after my last post and the flat was dark and empty. Cue catastrophising thoughts about the worst. I...

No PMO Day 269; no MO Day 75; no SUB Day 6 I had a nice day with my family yesterday. Urges are low at the moment, although internet use hasn't been healthy. I've had to admit that although I was bingeing on YT because I was tired and stressed, actually it has been making me more tired and...

I quit alcohol about 3 years ago and I do have to say that it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The abyss of hangovers was one of the main factors, and something that I don't miss. Whichever way you go I'm sure you will find the way. Best.

Hi @GBS , I know that editing your journal is highly presumptuous so I hope you don't mind, but I've gone and done it anyway - perhaps because I haven't learned to do it for my own yet. Last time I promise. Well done.

No PMO Day 266; no MO Day 72; no SUB Day 1 A couple of days ago I clicked on an IG thirst trap (some bikini pics) and lingered on it for a minute before I remembered that I was keep track of my use of porn subs. I had started to mindlessly scroll social media again. A couple of days off IG...

No PMO Day 264; no MO Day 70; no SUB Day 60 Fighting with my partner has led to urges to MO and ogle. The lady in the office whom I stopped ogling before is suddenly looking very attractive again and I have stress horniness. But now I can feel that it's from loneliness and old habits...

No PMO Day 263; no MO Day 69; no SUB Day 59 Things are going ok. I haven't had any porn urges for a few days and MO urges are lower. My partner and I tried intimacies without fantasy on the weekend and I did my best to stay present and not augment it with other things. The urge to was there...

Cheers for that. Sometimes it's good to put that at the top of the list. It's really easy to miss the bleeding obvious sometimes. Actually most of the time. Hope you have a great weekend.

Also I heard a quote that I liked: "One can never get enough of what does not satisfy."

No PMO Day 259; no MO Day 65; no SUB Day 55 It's been a busy few days and I haven't been journaling or posted here since my return to the forum. Partly because of tiredness but also because of Netflix (something I have just gotten back under control by starting an inspiring new book: Zen and...

It's good to be reminded of the Coolidge effect. I think sometimes I am hoping that this will magically disappear one day. But it's something that has to be managed and responded to in a more healthy way. You are right, the explosion is just a moment. I like that - 'explosion' - it kinda...

I would like to posit that it's not a sad fact Gibbers, but that it's the best of all facts and also in fact very inspiring. And that wherever you are heading, it seems to be a leagues better place than where you were before. I don't know if you are prone to the obsessive thinking that we...

I just want to say all the best as you are clearly going through it. Please be kind to yourself and forgive yourself. Every even small push that you make in the right direction is a seed for the future even if it doesn't feel like it now. And every moment can be a fresh start no matter where...

Yesterday I managed to note my way out of a shame spiral which I am grateful for. My partner and son are away for a couple of nights at his grandparents due to our conflicting work schedules. Instead of reading, having a bath and getting some needed rest I watched YT until 3am after I finished...

Thanks for that Percival. My guilt had become self-defeating and I have been going around in circles. Since yesterday I have being saying the word "circle" to myself to note when I am starting to go into a thought/feeling of shame spiral. When I started it seemed to be every couple of...