Day 83, and I have just come back from some day surgery I have been waiting to get done for quite some time. As I was waiting for the anesthesia to kick in before going under the knife, I felt a great sense of peace for this past 6 months and how I have tried to step up and become a better man. Far from perfect - I have had stumbles on my Reboot journey but, in the end I have been genuinely trying, learning, and most of all have been accepting of myself regardless of what the score card said at the end of the day. And this gives me hope, because I think this is a major part of figuring out my shit - and learning to accept myself with all my warts and let go of all other shame and baggage.
I hope if this rings true for others, you can use this to your advantage in your struggles. Stay strong all.