21 and trying to save my penis

Hi,

I am 21 and I have known that I have PIED since April 2021. I have had numerous unsuccessful sexual encounters, and even though I have liked those girls a lot, I was never able to get a full erection. I stopped watching porn when I figured this out in April and I would try to not masterbate but I was never able to abstain for longer than 2 weeks at a time. 4 days ago I broke and watched porn for the first time since April, and it felt good to have a full erection but I felt very guilty after. I feel like I am making no progress so I am committing myself to anyone who will follow along with me. I have followed other peoples journeys when I found out about PIED in April, and I thought I was strong enough to do this myself. I have found out I am not, and as I am too ashamed to tell anyone I know about my problems I am here looking for the support of the community.

My goal is to go for 1 month without PMO, doubling my current highest stream. From there I will try and go longer, but a month sounds more realistic than 3 months, so this is the goal for now. I have been going 4 days strong so far (since September 17th).

To be able to get full erections would help give me confidence again, as I feel emasculated by my inability to do what all men should be able to do. It has stopped me from talking to girls as I don't see the point if I can't do anything with them sexually. I believe myself to be mentally strong and happy, I exercise 5x a week and have a good job which I enjoy. I believe I have a healthy lifestyle so I am hoping that this will be positive in my pursuit of curing my PIED.

I was wondering if anyone could give me advice on using a fleshlight when I return to Masterbation. I am worried that my penis is used to my hand and not a vagina, I wonder if this will help me get better erections.

thanks for reading, hopefully you will join me in my journey.
 

Le7

Member
Hello buddy
I'm also trying to reboot
Today is my day number 9
I really feel what you pass through
I have the same problem
I'm had unsuccessful sexual encounters
And I couldn't find out what was going on too
I was so ashamed of myself
I also feel that my penis is use to my hand now I can only have sex in doggie style position, so I can be on control and it feels like I masturbate myself
It's so weird
I want to be normal and have a normal erection and have normal sex
I see a beautiful woman and I don't even try to flirting her because I don't know if we go to bed ill be able to have an erection or not
It's frustrating
 

Fappy

Respected Member
hi,
your brain has become wired to porn and your hand, by rewiring it youll go back to normal for sure.
as for the fleshlight, well, as long as youre not looking at porn when you use it why not? dont rely on it to make you more sensitive to a vagina, though. theres a lot more to sex than simply stimulating your cock in someones hole.
 
Hello buddy
I'm also trying to reboot
Today is my day number 9
I really feel what you pass through
I have the same problem
I'm had unsuccessful sexual encounters
And I couldn't find out what was going on too
I was so ashamed of myself
I also feel that my penis is use to my hand now I can only have sex in doggie style position, so I can be on control and it feels like I masturbate myself
It's so weird
I want to be normal and have a normal erection and have normal sex
I see a beautiful woman and I don't even try to flirting her because I don't know if we go to bed ill be able to have an erection or not
It's frustrating
Hi Le7 - hope you are still continuing your streak, do you have a specific number in mind? Have you been trying to rewire for a while as well?
 
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I haven't posted an update for a while as I've been busy which is good, keeps me distracted. I am now on day 11. MW has returned again most nights, other than that I don't seem to get an erections throughout the day. Longest I've gone for was 15 days to hoping to seem some improvement if I go longer than that
 
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so on day 14 I have failed as I MO. The last few days have been a struggle because I will get erections and have the urge to O. Last night I kept on waking up with lots of solid morning wood, then a few minutes ago I had a really strong erection. I couldn't help myself and touched it very gently and slowly for about 1 minute then I exploded (orgasmed). My penis was very erect I would say around 90%. Is it bad that I did this? I don't know how people can go longer than 2 weeks, when I get to this point I feel like I am going to erupt and my penis will just go off and jizz everywhere quickly.

I haven't watched porn - is it bad that I still O. If I O once every 2 weeks is that okay? will it impede my recovery? I don't know if I can go much longer without randomly cumming.
 

AdamReboot

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so on day 14 I have failed as I MO. The last few days have been a struggle because I will get erections and have the urge to O. Last night I kept on waking up with lots of solid morning wood, then a few minutes ago I had a really strong erection. I couldn't help myself and touched it very gently and slowly for about 1 minute then I exploded (orgasmed). My penis was very erect I would say around 90%. Is it bad that I did this? I don't know how people can go longer than 2 weeks, when I get to this point I feel like I am going to erupt and my penis will just go off and jizz everywhere quickly.

I haven't watched porn - is it bad that I still O. If I O once every 2 weeks is that okay? will it impede my recovery? I don't know if I can go much longer without randomly cumming.
Hey buddy, I was thinking the same about 2 weeks ago. I found a couple of articles saying its not necessary wrong to O during the reboot. They said its ok, until you don't use porn or any other artificial stimulant. And the way you O is also important. If you don't use a death grip, and you really try to focus on the sensation and the reactions if your body, jacking off might help.

Or at least, this is what I thought, but here I am now, relapsed after around 25 days.
I can't say that masturbation helps, I think it only makes things worse at the beggining. I also thought it would be just a "once in every 2 weeks" thing, but it quickly escalated and on the 3rd day I was watching porn again.
Though if you feel yourself strong enough not to use porn in these situations, and only having an O two weeks apart, than it won't cause you any trouble.

I'll try to reach 30-60 days in a row somehow, and then start to rewire my brain somehow. But masturbating at the begginig just makes everything worse for me
 

Sangiha

Member
Hi,

I am 21 and I have known that I have PIED since April 2021. I have had numerous unsuccessful sexual encounters, and even though I have liked those girls a lot, I was never able to get a full erection. I stopped watching porn when I figured this out in April and I would try to not masterbate but I was never able to abstain for longer than 2 weeks at a time. 4 days ago I broke and watched porn for the first time since April, and it felt good to have a full erection but I felt very guilty after. I feel like I am making no progress so I am committing myself to anyone who will follow along with me. I have followed other peoples journeys when I found out about PIED in April, and I thought I was strong enough to do this myself. I have found out I am not, and as I am too ashamed to tell anyone I know about my problems I am here looking for the support of the community.

My goal is to go for 1 month without PMO, doubling my current highest stream. From there I will try and go longer, but a month sounds more realistic than 3 months, so this is the goal for now. I have been going 4 days strong so far (since September 17th).

To be able to get full erections would help give me confidence again, as I feel emasculated by my inability to do what all men should be able to do. It has stopped me from talking to girls as I don't see the point if I can't do anything with them sexually. I believe myself to be mentally strong and happy, I exercise 5x a week and have a good job which I enjoy. I believe I have a healthy lifestyle so I am hoping that this will be positive in my pursuit of curing my PIED.

I was wondering if anyone could give me advice on using a fleshlight when I return to Masterbation. I am worried that my penis is used to my hand and not a vagina, I wonder if this will help me get better erections.

thanks for reading, hopefully you will join me in my journey.
You realized your problem early and you will make it through and heal your pied. Just know you are perfectly capable and healthy and stay strong.
 
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