Enough is enough

Candlelit

New Member
I've always been a purveyor of internet porn... most of it innocent enough when I was young. I think it was during my service in the army that things got worse, with me branching out to hentai where I was exposed to more and more extreme material. Looking back now the signs were clear. I used to be a wildly horny guy, having to hide the rock hard erections I had in high school even when I had sex the night before. All that changed when I went to the army and the lack of females led to me relying more and more on internet porn. I'd start from masturbating while taking a shit, to masturbating on duty and even watching porn while manning the ops room in the camera's blind spot while everyone else slept beside me.

All this time I had this voice in my mind telling me I needed to stop, and even while jerking off I'll be filled with guilt and regret of what I did. Things never clicked until a few weeks ago when I slept with a cheerleader. Here she was on my bed, moaning and begging for me, asking for me to give her the night of her life. Yet I was limp...and I knew exactly why. I had felt no greater shame in my life than when I had to command her to finger herself while I went to the bathroom. "I need to pee" I said, after which I went to google porn while rapidly jerking my limp member.

I ended that night a sinner. She had entrusted herself and her first experience to me willingly... and I left her feeling undesired and cold on the bed. I am writing this to remember the pain I felt, and the remorse I feel towards her. I silently cried the next day after she left, both for her and at myself for allowing myself to sink so deep.

I have lasted one week and 2 days without relapsing to porn, masturbation or orgasm and I plan to keep it that way. For those that haven't reached such a stage of Porn induced ED yet, I hope my story both amuses and motivates you to keep on the reboot. No momentary satisfaction is worth ruining both your current and future relationships.
 

zackergeet

Active Member
I've always been a purveyor of internet porn... most of it innocent enough when I was young. I think it was during my service in the army that things got worse, with me branching out to hentai where I was exposed to more and more extreme material. Looking back now the signs were clear. I used to be a wildly horny guy, having to hide the rock hard erections I had in high school even when I had sex the night before. All that changed when I went to the army and the lack of females led to me relying more and more on internet porn. I'd start from masturbating while taking a shit, to masturbating on duty and even watching porn while manning the ops room in the camera's blind spot while everyone else slept beside me.

All this time I had this voice in my mind telling me I needed to stop, and even while jerking off I'll be filled with guilt and regret of what I did. Things never clicked until a few weeks ago when I slept with a cheerleader. Here she was on my bed, moaning and begging for me, asking for me to give her the night of her life. Yet I was limp...and I knew exactly why. I had felt no greater shame in my life than when I had to command her to finger herself while I went to the bathroom. "I need to pee" I said, after which I went to google porn while rapidly jerking my limp member.

I ended that night a sinner. She had entrusted herself and her first experience to me willingly... and I left her feeling undesired and cold on the bed. I am writing this to remember the pain I felt, and the remorse I feel towards her. I silently cried the next day after she left, both for her and at myself for allowing myself to sink so deep.

I have lasted one week and 2 days without relapsing to porn, masturbation or orgasm and I plan to keep it that way. For those that haven't reached such a stage of Porn induced ED yet, I hope my story both amuses and motivates you to keep on the reboot. No momentary satisfaction is worth ruining both your current and future relationships
I know the feeling bro, since that day I have started to reboot it is my day 83 without PMO. Hope you are rebooting as well, wish you the best, we can overcome this!
 

Fappy

Respected Member
I had felt no greater shame in my life than when I had to command her to finger herself while I went to the bathroom. "I need to pee" I said, after which I went to google porn while rapidly jerking my limp member.
been there, done that. its so pathetic isnt it. you had to "command" her to finger herself, sorry but i just imagined Gandalf saying that... but seriously i see you are very motivated to never let this happen again, which is good. ride that guilt and regret to freedom!
 
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