I've known I've had a problem for a long time. Not only was I using porn once a day at least, when it got really bad I was using 3-4-5 times a day. If my partner isn't home, it was almost an instant reaction. She would leave for work at 5:20 in the morning, and id hear the door slam, and I would use it to get my day going. If she left for 30 minutes to walk to the store I would use it. Id use it on my Data while at work, because the internet has the websites blocked. Even writing this I am thinking about it. And it completely messed up our sex life. When we do have sex, I last all of about 10 seconds. It destroys my confidence and just drives me back to using. And then yesterday happened. She was on a Zoom meeting, and I used it in the other room. THE OTHER ROOM.
So I'm here. I asked for help from my counselor and she sent me here.
I want to stop using it like an alcoholic would use beer or wine to numb their pain.
I want to stop feeling shame when I do use it.
I want my sex life to be normal again.
I don't know how long this will take. But I want it to work. I've quit smoking before, and I'm finding this harder.
Me: 27 Male, in a relationship of nearly 6 years. I have an educational background and am currently a supply teacher.
I started watching porn when i was 13. I would get up in the middle of the night, sneak onto my dad's dial-up PC and find the various things. It started innocently. Naked girls. Big boobs. stuff like that.
Now, my struggles are because of my varied interests sexually. I discovered feedee/feeder porn. Drunk porn. Gangbang, forced, casting, voyeurism, mukbang, you name it, I've watched it. and now, I feel gross afterward, every time.
Today is Day 1. My goal is to make it to Day 2. My goal is to make it to 30 days after that. I want a reset.
I will check myself. I will distract myself. I will come here and find someone to talk to about my urges. But i need help.
I do.
So I'm here. I asked for help from my counselor and she sent me here.
I want to stop using it like an alcoholic would use beer or wine to numb their pain.
I want to stop feeling shame when I do use it.
I want my sex life to be normal again.
I don't know how long this will take. But I want it to work. I've quit smoking before, and I'm finding this harder.
Me: 27 Male, in a relationship of nearly 6 years. I have an educational background and am currently a supply teacher.
I started watching porn when i was 13. I would get up in the middle of the night, sneak onto my dad's dial-up PC and find the various things. It started innocently. Naked girls. Big boobs. stuff like that.
Now, my struggles are because of my varied interests sexually. I discovered feedee/feeder porn. Drunk porn. Gangbang, forced, casting, voyeurism, mukbang, you name it, I've watched it. and now, I feel gross afterward, every time.
Today is Day 1. My goal is to make it to Day 2. My goal is to make it to 30 days after that. I want a reset.
I will check myself. I will distract myself. I will come here and find someone to talk to about my urges. But i need help.
I do.
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