Man, at least today I feel better than I've felt in a while. Only after 12 days hard mode. However, there is a downside for this: Massive urges, bro. The craving and the urges are crazy, man. But, I am here to write this for me as a reminder and motivational why I should not relapse.
Here is what porn gives me:
- High social anxiety;
- Lethargy for days after relapse;
- Lack of motivation;
- Lack of drive to succeed and do things in life;
- Low mental tolerance (a.k.a small things bother me more than they should);
- Physical pain feels stronger;
- Panic moments;
- My voice starts sounding thinner and more quiet in general;
- It makes me be mediocre overall;
- Concentration problems;
- Memory problems;
- It messes up my dopamine system and I can't enjoy anything anymore.
Did I forget something?
P.S:
You don't give up anything when you give up porn because, in order to give something up that thing must give you something, must be of some importance to you and the truth is that porn gives you absolutely nothing. Pleasure? This is not a good reason to throw your life away. Pleasure is never enough.
Comfort? Self-medication? It alleviates boredom, stress? Porn doesn't give comfort or medication, it causes discomfort and suffering on long term. The comfort is just a temporary illusion. Porn doesn't alleviate stress or boredom, it actually increases stress and makes you even more bored because you can't enjoy anything anymore.
Oh, there is actually something to give up when you quit porn: You give up all the problems caused by porn.