im 35...im in the last few minutes of the game and want to give it my last shot!

hamilton8

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masturbated overnight.....dammm...no porn, but a moment of weakness where i masturbated quickly....this is not a straight line i know but at least i didnt use porn.....still no porn which i am proud of.....but a slip where i jerked off quickly...look, im still proud i have not looked at porn though and that has lasted almost 11 days so im looking at that as a positive! if i can get to 2 weeks without porn thats the longest i have ever gone in my whole life so i am almost there!
 

Jswizzle

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masturbated overnight.....dammm...no porn, but a moment of weakness where i masturbated quickly....this is not a straight line i know but at least i didnt use porn.....still no porn which i am proud of.....but a slip where i jerked off quickly...look, im still proud i have not looked at porn though and that has lasted almost 11 days so im looking at that as a positive! if i can get to 2 weeks without porn thats the longest i have ever gone in my whole life so i am almost there!
Hey brother, your doing good!!! Best wishes on the two week mark. The difference between a lapse and a relapse is catching yourself and being accountable, not reverting back to old behaviors, and still staying the course. The times I'm most tempted to jerk off is when I'm tired. Late at night, or early morning. I have read research that early in the morning is when when testosterone peaks, which =morning wood. Late at night is when our willpower is at its weakest because we've taxed it throughout the day. I'm following your journey brother. We can recover.
 

hamilton8

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today my mind feels fuzzy and brain fog....this is a massive symptom for me....do others also get this brain fog issue? im still soldiering on through it and focusing on gratitude....i will get there!
 
today my mind feels fuzzy and brain fog....this is a massive symptom for me....do others also get this brain fog issue? im still soldiering on through it and focusing on gratitude....i will get there!
Yes brain fog does happen for a day or two after you do PMO or even only MO.
I have experienced it during the binge day of a relapse.

It will clear off. Keep focussing on self-improvement and on rebooting.
 

hamilton8

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i feel good today! mid morning i felt a bit sluggish but today i feel level headed! progress! i feel more able to verbally communicate and freed up in my mind. i have felt this for year! i have felt like my mind has been restricted and blocked from being able to communicate. i feel freed up to a certain extent. progress!
 
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hamilton8

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day 12 no porn.......i was thinking that a big part of me getting this far was opening up to my father about the issue that i have with porn.....this allows me to talk to him about my struggles.....also por blockeers are important because i literally cant look up porn on my devices.....this is so important as my father has all the passwords etc.. this helps! still i have got to day 12 no porn!!!!
 

hamilton8

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i was thinking, using porn (and other dopamins flooding things-social media-gaming) i think it does more than sexual dysfunction......I beleive it also reshaped your view of the world! we interact in the world and our experiences shape our view of what the world is.....then our minds relflect on these experiences and we form a world view! this then shapes our perceptions and thoughts and actions.....with woman, if we are constantly looking at a screen then our perception of them is what we see on the screen which is a dolled up version which is so unattainable in real life......hence our experience of reality leaves us dissapointed because our minds interpretation of what is acceptable raises the bar in our lifes if so so high that when we experience real life, our mind subconsciusly is dissapointed.........these days porn and social media glorifies the idea llife that one 1% of the population can obtain (i.e the hottest girlfriend-the highest paying job) and when 99% of the people in life dont experience that as their reality then we are left dissapointed deep in our subconscious....hence leaving us with mental health issues.

50 years ago or even 20 years ago im sure PIED was not much of a thing for anyone below 50, now it is prevelent with PIED....

so i encourage myself everyday...no porn....2 hour limit on my iphone use.......a daily walk......sunshine...no processed food....real life interactions with people.....i may not do it every day perfectly but at least im on the track to achieving it
 

hamilton8

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I have mixed feelings today! i feel good and my brain fog has reduced but i still feel a bit flat! i have a date tonight. im a bit worried because i have not PMO for 12 days but i jerked off about 5 days ago, so will it work? will it not? last time i was with this woman, we were intimate, but im concerned that even though im not PMO'ing, i am having real sex....i mean does that ruin my progress? this is a cycle i would fall into previously....i am ashamed, but because of my porn use my perception of woman was bad and i would be a womanizer-where i would sleep around with all these woman and then disgard them....but im thinking like i want to have sex, but i dont want to just have sex i want to develop a loving relationship with someone....
 

Unashamed

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The fact that your thinking about it and questioning your motives seems like a good step in the right direction! The whole idea as I see behind the reboot is to get the brain thinking correctly, and a good healthy P free relationship is the ultimate goal! Keep going my man!
 
hey guys. im 35 and back onto trying to deal with my porn addiciton. For anyone younger than me I pleading with you to abstain from pornography. I have gone through my 20's and early 30's of my life and porn has ruined every oppotunity to win in life! I am a kind of person that people think 'that guy would win life'- good looking, smart etc....you know what! all that does is gets you a start...let me explain!....if you are good looking, you get a date and a chance an intercoarse, but soon after becasue porn is in your brain, it thinks of your hot gf as nothing compared to porn....and the relationship will end! Because lets face it a beautiful woman has options....second, in work and study, porn ruins you concentration ability. it ruins you ability to focus! during the day your brain is deprived of dopamine! and you loose jobs! your cant study so you fail.....with friendships....you want to just stay home and jerk off to porn so you dont build friendships in your cruicial 20's....or the friendships you make, your brain doesnt value the interactions because it knows it can get porn! Then becasue you will loose beautiful gf's! loose good jobs! fail college! you will be left with trauma! and this trauma haunts you!....so please STAY AWAY FROM PORN! and give yourself a chance with life. Im 35 now. im in my last innings to start again and i pray that i will stop being haunted from my past and an able to abstain from porn to build a life that will last! i am at the stage where i give in to porn maybe once a month, and masturbate once a week...so i have come a long way, but i have a long way to go!

I am on day 2 just finished!
These are all facts bro. I failed in college because of my lack of grit and discipline. All from having a weak brain cuz all my fapping. From 16-22 I MO'd 2-3 times a day BACK 2 BACK. My O's were SOO INTENSE, it felt so good. But as a result, it weakened my brain and caused sooo much social and general anixiety in my life... Gotta save the youth to not make the same mistakes. Cold thing is, they have it worse with the smart phones and access to brazzzers at their palms. God bless us
 

Escapeandnevercomeback

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These are all facts bro. I failed in college because of my lack of grit and discipline. All from having a weak brain cuz all my fapping. From 16-22 I MO'd 2-3 times a day BACK 2 BACK. My O's were SOO INTENSE, it felt so good. But as a result, it weakened my brain and caused sooo much social and general anixiety in my life... Gotta save the youth to not make the same mistakes. Cold thing is, they have it worse with the smart phones and access to brazzzers at their palms. God bless us
Same, man.
 

hamilton8

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the temptation is so sneaky.....i was in the middle of getting changed after cricket today and my mind played tricks on me and i edged for about 5 mins.....then i stopped myself....no orgasm and a minor blip....what i have learnt is when getting changed this is a vulnerable time....and another trigger to be aware of!
 

hamilton8

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yesterday was day 14 no porn. 2 weeks down! this marks my highest streak.....i celebrated by treating myself a big mac from maccas.....lol....im proud of 2 weeks with gratitute.-looking back at my my failures and attempts a quitting previously.
 

hamilton8

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i feel today that my mind is craving porn but i wont give in to it. it is calling for it. i can feel it.....My mind has probably today about 100 times thought....lets eat chocolate..lets have a coffee and get caffeine.....lets have more fast food....lets have the soft drink that's in the fridge.....i am aware of these thoughts......but i am staying strong a learning into gratitude...
 
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hamilton8

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Im struggling today big time....i can feel the need to fap and PMO but i will not...struggle street today. My mind just wants to edge and mastubate but i have to hold off! hold off as much as i can! the struggle is real today!
 
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