SmokenMirrors
Well-Known Member
Smashing it brother. You're an inspiration!
Honestly, my goal is today. Live each moment the best I can. That's what has gotten me here so far. 4 months, 4 years, 40 years. It will take me nearly that long just to balance how long I did it for.This is really beautiful, thanks for inspiring me Onmyway. You really hit the nail on the head, life is so much better without porn, even on the bad days when life gets you down. Nothing compares to feeling the emotions and ups and downs of life, and not running off to hide from it!
I'm so happy to hear that life is better with your wife and everything else in your life.
What is your next goal you're shooting for? 4 months?
Keep killing it man!
Blondie
My goal is to never watch porn again and live each moment the best I can. That's it.
Appreciate your support Phineas. I'm glad that my journey has been a benefit to others. That's why it's important for all of us to share experiences, good and bad. We can all learn from each other and grow together. It's a beautiful thing.That's really the best any of us can really do! Thank you Onmyway for being an example in humility, tenacity and showing us that healing is possible.
That means more than you'll probably ever realize. Your story is what led me here. You've been an inspiration for me since day 1. Your journey gave me a sliver hope when I thought my world was ending.Extremely proud of you, @Onmyway19! So awesome to read your thoughts on your journey to a better life. Thanks for being here and sharing that with us. Keep truckin' and I hope the best for you! Much love
A great goal for all of us on this journeyMy goal from today forward, is to always be my greatest ally.
Great progress Onmyway! Seems you are making changes that will have a positive impact beyond not watching porn (which is a huge positive in itself)Where I need to be is not letting outside influences, weather, family problems, life and work stresses, get me off my center. Maintaining composure in all situations is key to success. I've always been aware of this, now it's time to make it a priority and act on it.
Thank you Blondie and Phineas for the kind words of support. It's very much appreciated.
I'm actually feeling a lot better today. Letting go and getting things out in the open really helps.
My biggest struggle lately, or source of stress, has been my son. He's a teenager. To say it's been a struggle the last few years with him would be an understatement. Definitely knows how to push my buttons and really seems to enjoy it. I've failed with maintaining my composure, many times and I know that's what he's after. I dont know why he gets such enjoyment from it, but he does.
Yesterday I was very dilligent in not letting his behavior and actions effect my mood. Though it was trying at times, I was successful. Never lost my temper, or raised my voice. I actually gave him a taste of his own medicine by singing while he was " helping" me change some ceiling fans. He was quite annoyed.
Yesterday was certainly a win for me. One I needed to pull out of this funk I've been in. Still have a long road ahead, and I've gotten away from some of the habits I was building earlier in my reboot. Most , I've replaced with being able to work outside again. Winter was always when I used the most. Being able to get into the outdoors and do some work outside has been very beneficial to my mental well-being. Where I need to be is not letting outside influences, weather, family problems, life and work stresses, get me off my center. Maintaining composure in all situations is key to success. I've always been aware of this, now it's time to make it a priority and act on it.
Keep fighting, friends