grantis
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Whats up yall. Day 1 after a relapse (M 24, hungry for chick-fl-a and )
Brief intro: I don't play any music, and I mean NONE. I'm the guy at the cookout whos shaking a plastic egg full of rice totally out of rhythm while holding a bottle of Vodka, oblivious to my shirt as it goes up in flame.
On the flip side, I totally watch P. It's like CRACK! I have no self control. Moreover, the content I consume is so beyond unhealthy that It makes Robert De Niro look like a picture of health. Its 0-100 real quick, and it can last up to 7 hours.
Here's the strange thing. I'm doing ok. I used to destroy myself over relapsing, berate myself into nothing. I changed my approach over the course of the past 4 months. I practice love for my inner addict, treating myself with kindness and patience whenever i do relapse. I don't get mad at myself. If I'm careless, I simply thank myself for a learning opportunity.
In place of P, I'm going to pick up the simplest instrument I can; a Harmonica. I want to rebuild my habits to the point I'm so addicted to playing harmonica I have to join a harmonica reboot forum. A simple way to distract the mind from the fantastic draw of porn.
Also, I have no goal on how many days to go without P. I've tried sobriety before many times (AAO, no fap, retreats, dopamine detox, etc.) and I always fail. The only goal I have is to fully open and love myself despite this addiction.
love the relapse as
effort is meaningless.
Harmonicas are weird
and porn
what a delicious treat.
Brief intro: I don't play any music, and I mean NONE. I'm the guy at the cookout whos shaking a plastic egg full of rice totally out of rhythm while holding a bottle of Vodka, oblivious to my shirt as it goes up in flame.
On the flip side, I totally watch P. It's like CRACK! I have no self control. Moreover, the content I consume is so beyond unhealthy that It makes Robert De Niro look like a picture of health. Its 0-100 real quick, and it can last up to 7 hours.
Here's the strange thing. I'm doing ok. I used to destroy myself over relapsing, berate myself into nothing. I changed my approach over the course of the past 4 months. I practice love for my inner addict, treating myself with kindness and patience whenever i do relapse. I don't get mad at myself. If I'm careless, I simply thank myself for a learning opportunity.
In place of P, I'm going to pick up the simplest instrument I can; a Harmonica. I want to rebuild my habits to the point I'm so addicted to playing harmonica I have to join a harmonica reboot forum. A simple way to distract the mind from the fantastic draw of porn.
Also, I have no goal on how many days to go without P. I've tried sobriety before many times (AAO, no fap, retreats, dopamine detox, etc.) and I always fail. The only goal I have is to fully open and love myself despite this addiction.
love the relapse as
effort is meaningless.
Harmonicas are weird
and porn
what a delicious treat.
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