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Great job getting to 42 days and not using porn on your "doctor-ordered" MO before!
Appreciate it!Great job getting to 42 days and not using porn on your "doctor-ordered" MO before!
I wanted to read your thread because you replied to mine and I wanted to see what similarities we are going through. I understand how porn is the basis of everything that leads us into what we do the Sexting the Snapchat the chats with live women it all stems from the root source of pornography. Though it might be a little too late for my marriage it’s never too late to change for myself to better my future as a person. As someone who is struggling with the same thing I’m happy to hear that you identify these issues and are willing to work to get better. I understand when you say how it lead you to chat rooms and other things in that nature. It’s a different type of high but it all again roots from the same base.Well, here it goes. I gave a bit of an intro in another thread, but I'll tell some context/history here and count this as Day 1 of no porn or other sexually addictive behaviors.
History
I'm in my 30s, married, no kids (and don't have plans to have them). For as long as I can remember, I've struggled with an addiction to porn, sexting, and tons of online sexual behavior. I've lived in shame my entire life and two months ago I took action to find a therapist to help me fix this problem and heal. When I was younger, I started looking at porn. While I can't pinpoint it, eventually that moved to watching cam girls, to eventually paying for cam girls, to then going on chat sites. Eventually, I had regular conversations with women on snapchat, kik, and texting. We'd sext, exchange pictures, etc. Until two months ago when I started therapy for this, I never told anyone. Even when I went to other therapists, I never addressed this issue.
When I started two months ago, I was most interested in stopping all of the behaviors that I deemed to be "adulterous." For me, that was the sexting, chat rooms, and things with another live human being. I wasn't necessarily worried about porn. But, I've now realized that it all stems from the same desire and it's important for me to stop it all.
For the past two months, I've watched my sexting behavior go down (almost non-existent) but my porn viewing go WAY up. So, today I'm going to start journaling and make this Day 1 of no porn. There are lots of triggers and reasons for how I got here... and I'll detail them in other channels. But, for now, I'm focusing on being happy I'm here and sharing my story and holding myself accountable.
I vow to do my best to ask for help when I need it.
This means a lot. I’m here to support you and everyone I can here. Let me know if there’s anything I can ever do to helpI wanted to read your thread because you replied to mine and I wanted to see what similarities we are going through. I understand how porn is the basis of everything that leads us into what we do the Sexting the Snapchat the chats with live women it all stems from the root source of pornography. Though it might be a little too late for my marriage it’s never too late to change for myself to better my future as a person. As someone who is struggling with the same thing I’m happy to hear that you identify these issues and are willing to work to get better. I understand when you say how it lead you to chat rooms and other things in that nature. It’s a different type of high but it all again roots from the same base.
we are all here for each other keep the great progress up of bettering yourself for you and your marriage and you’ll begin to see the life that you want. Good luck my friend we are all behind you
Appreciate it!!Congrats man! 85 days is huge!
Today is 90!Wow, way to go bro! You're almost at 90, and you've worked so hard on this. So much to be proud of.
Very true. I’m about 3/4 of the way through and finding it so helpful.That is really a great book. I also find it significant that it starts with the story of a sex addict among all the other addictions.