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As the thread title suggests
I'm going to use this thread to keep track of my reboot process.
I'm going to use this thread to keep track of my reboot process.
Thanks @ladysudan@tryingtobreakfree Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks!Good luck breaking this! All of us older folks will say the same thing: it's so good to break this young! You're giving yourself the gift of porn-free 20's
Keep going!Day 2: Clean (No PMO)
My mind kept drifting to those thoughts and images. I managed to control it but it was overwhelming sometimes. I also felt a bit frustrated all day.
One more thing I realized is that I'm somewhat insecure about my body. I'm kind of short and skinny. And people close around me constantly pointing out how skinny I am doesn't help.
I also realised my mind will put weird things into my head which I may over read into. As someone who has taken OCD meds in past I think I know where that comes from. But if anyone else goes through this I'll probably advice, Don't do this. It probably means nothing. But just ur mind making things worse. As I'm someone who used to use porn also to escape negative emotions sometimes this is one another trick my mind plays on me to make me react to it.
PS- i probably will reach out to a therapist in the future haha
First of all thanks for the effort u made to guide me/write this. Now to ur questions and suggestions,My advice, take it or leave it:
Get a good, concrete plan going. I'm happy/proud of you for your progress so far. With this current clarity, really stop and ask yourself what the struggles are going to be, and how you're going to overcome them.
Write it down! Don't just hold the idea in your head, that makes it way too easy to bargain or move the goalposts later.
What good habits are you forming while breaking this bad one? Eating healthier? Getting a new hobby? Etc?
I'm a huge advocate for physical exercise. Pick something reasonable that you'll actually do, and commit to a concrete amount of it. ("I'm gonna work out more." and "I'm gonna start running 10 miles every single day." are terrible goals. "I'm going to ride my bike for at least 30 minutes 3x a week" Is a great goal)
Good luck!
The thoughts or urges or whatever you want to call them are really difficult to ignore at first. But, trust me, it gets better as time goes on.Anyway about the thoughts, I try to shut down them asap. Being honest sometimes I do realise how these are pointless which makes it easy to ignore them.
This is so relatable! I know this has happened with me whenever I felt discomfort or some strong emotion I would go do PMO in the past to shut down the intensity of what I was feeling to keep me in sort of numb state so I didn't had to care. Lately I have realised how it affected me as any time I'm in these kind of situations there's a sexual tension in mind. Sometimes I've tried to identify this sensation I'm feeling and realized it's just negative emotions. Not a call for PMO. But if one does things like me it's easy to confuse one with another.but during my porn addiction, 99% of the time I was experiencing some kind of negative emotion that led me to PMO. I wasn't horny; I was angry or frustrated or sad about something. By examining the emotions, it made them less powerful.