Ezel
Respected Member
Day 26, no po, no mo (monk mode).
Fantasizes about a girl I used to work with came out of nowhere this morning, maybe i was triggered by an anime I watched before I had those urges, even though the anime was not that sexual (echii type), but there was some skin shown in it…
Whenever i see something that goes against the monk mode i’m currently following, i look away and try to think about something else, to kind of control my thought process, because i know after my brain saw that stuff, it’s going to use it against me…
Man, it’s an exhausting battle, you can be highly alert all day long, but in the end of the day, something might slip and pass through all the defenses you are building. But that doesn’t mean if it’s gotten into your head to give in to it, just observe it and watch but don’t act on it, it’s like those soul getting out of your physical body experiences, when you observe yourself from the outside…
Just enjoy the show and don’t give that thought any attention, because you are the one who gives it the power to control you.
Being mindful and observing our thoughts, feelings and sensations in the moment means we can more easily notice when we're caught up in them. With awareness comes the power of choice - the choice to become less attached to them, to experience something different, or to truly savor them.
Keep pushing kings, and stay away from the screen and its subs…
Peace.
Ezel.
Fantasizes about a girl I used to work with came out of nowhere this morning, maybe i was triggered by an anime I watched before I had those urges, even though the anime was not that sexual (echii type), but there was some skin shown in it…
Whenever i see something that goes against the monk mode i’m currently following, i look away and try to think about something else, to kind of control my thought process, because i know after my brain saw that stuff, it’s going to use it against me…
Man, it’s an exhausting battle, you can be highly alert all day long, but in the end of the day, something might slip and pass through all the defenses you are building. But that doesn’t mean if it’s gotten into your head to give in to it, just observe it and watch but don’t act on it, it’s like those soul getting out of your physical body experiences, when you observe yourself from the outside…
Just enjoy the show and don’t give that thought any attention, because you are the one who gives it the power to control you.
Being mindful and observing our thoughts, feelings and sensations in the moment means we can more easily notice when we're caught up in them. With awareness comes the power of choice - the choice to become less attached to them, to experience something different, or to truly savor them.
Keep pushing kings, and stay away from the screen and its subs…
Peace.
Ezel.