Shodan
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I’m a 35 year old male. I had minimum ten year PMO addiction. Don’t be fooled by the number - 713. It’s a large number and I’ve come further than I ever thought, which I’ll be eternally grateful for. However I’ve come to realise in the last several weeks that it’s better to make the days count rather than counting the days. Yes I’ve come along way in terms of time spent and the old impulses are well gone but my mind is still very sexual because in two years I’ve done hardly anything EXCEPT abstain. It was just last week I decided to remove myself from ALL FORMS OF SOCIAL MEDIA because I simply realised it isn’t constructive to what I’m trying - furthermore GOING to achieve. And since I’ve un-layered my mind of the useless cargo I’m gaining further clarity. I’m now being pushed into exercise and healthy eating - basically I’ve recently understood that the secret of change is to focus ALL energy on building the new instead of using said energy to fight the old, which essentially I’ve been doing for almost two years. I am happy I’ve comes this far ABSOLUTELY, because I’m all-too-aware of how destructive the reclusive, zombified-lifestyle of a PMO addict is. It’s a dark and unforgiving hole filled with all types of crawling nastiness that literally DESTROYS our lives! That’s the bottom line for me and I’ve reached my point now where change is an inevitable MUST, but TRANSFORMATIVE CHANGE not simply abstinence. I’m so grateful I’ve found this forum because I was simply out here running an abstinence marathon with no finish line in sight, sort of just floating around like a hungry ghost. But now I’m here I can truly EDUCATE MYSELF on how to progress FORWARD not just look for ways to stop me going backwards. This for me is a basic but very crucial tweak of mindset, however basic it will affect pure change in the most magical way. To live a life I never had I must do something I’ve never ever done and that’s GAIN and MAINTAIN DISCIPLINE across all areas of life. I’m treating my body like the temple it really is and my mind is the sacred vessel that is followed BY my body. It all begins there for me - the mind. If anybody has an advice on how I can FINISH THIS I welcome all critique! Thank you in advance brothers!