cookiemonster
Active Member
I've been here before.Pretty soon I will have reached ten weeks without porn. Wow! Unbelievable.
And then after that it won't be long until I will have reached 3 months, a quarter of a year. I can hardly believe it.
I'm not as pumped and as energetic as I was when I was looking forward to dates with that girl but I'm still doing pretty well.
I just MO'd but I'm pretty indifferent to it. I'm staying clear of porn and at this point it doesn't seem like I'm going to be orgasming from sex so I don't mind if every few weeks I masturbate. It's purely from sensation and no fantasizing. Maybe I can try and keep doing hard mode, particularly if I notice any chaser effect and cravings for porn. But at this stage it just feels good to have a bit of a release once in a while.
I think I've also kind of forgotten what it was like to have PIED where I was whacking a semi-limp dick even with porn. My dick responds well to touch alone, although it's not as wild as it was after that 5 week hard mode right at the beginning. And I imagine it should still just keep getting better and better.
So from here on I think it's just about continuing with no PMO ever and holding off on MO as long as possible but once every few weeks shouldn't be catastrophic.
It's crazy how I've broken the habit of watching porn but I can still feel how easy it would be to watch it "just because" and slip back into the addiction.
If I accomplish nothing else in a day other than succeeding in continuing to not watch porn, that's still a success to a large extent.
Let's keep going.
Tomorrow will mark 10 weeks porn free.
Funnily enough here I am at the 10 week mark in my last reboot talking about a trigger on the TV. Today there was a similar nude trigger in a show.10 weeks. We made it.
I'm going through a rough patch in terms of urges. I guess some chaser effect from MO + there were some nude scenes in a show I saw. I think it's the nude scenes mostly, I've managed to just avoid buying into triggers and I let my guard down a little by actually allowing myself to admire the women, bad idea I guess!
I need to slow everything down, have a good night's rest. Remind myself why I'm doing what I'm doing and be proud of all the good work I've put in and not spoil it!
I am also going through a rough patch in terms of more compulsive MO. I MO'd again this morning.
So here I am, nearing the 10 week mark which is when I relapsed last time.
I'm going to take this moment to reflect and steel my resolve.
Look at how far you've come. Think about the world that awaits you if you just keep clocking up the weeks porn-free. I don't want porn in my life ever. It gives me nothing and never has. It is a fleur du mal. It sucks you in but offers no happiness or satisfaction, just momentary physical pleasure.
My fellow rebooters, let's keep fighting the good fight. I enjoy coming here each day and seeing you all making progress and battling it out in the trenches next to me. We're going to win this thing.
My life is good. I'm getting fit again and running regularly and I have 6 months of growth and adventure ahead of me. A lot to fight for.
Goodnight for now.