15+years of PMO addiction and need help

Bawanda

Member
Hi! There
My addiction started when I got a taste of penis rub against my bike seat. Then it turn into regular masturbation at early age of 12. I used newspaper bikini photos to masturbate and hot bollywood item songs were the favorites to masturbate on. Then at the age of 14 I had sex with a woman. Then I realized that when I masturbate by looking at that woman I had a hard erection but when I mate with her little or no erection. I got separate from her. Then came internet and porn. And since then it's been 11 years and in that last 4 to 5 years I masturbated almost daily basis 2 to 3 times by watching porn. I want to quit it but addiction is difficult to give up. Now I'm 26 years old and I did not feel anything in my penis when my girlfriend touched it but it erects when I masturbate while imagining my girlfriend. Please help!
This is a tragedy even if I want to give it up but last time i tried but after 2and half months I relapsed. I want to marry but I'm turning 27 very soon and I'm postponing my marriage just because of PIED. I'm afraid of how long will it take to recover.
 
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Bawanda

Member
I I'm ruining my relationship with friends and relatives especially with female relative because I see them as sex object. It's very horrendous for me.
 

Bawanda

Member
It's a week since I started reboot journey 1st day I couldn't control and after that for 6 days I haven't seen any porn and diverted my mind once negative thoughts came to my mind. But I'm having anxiety any time for no reason. Can anyone relate to my condition
 

Bawanda

Member
Yesterday night I went out to market and it's very hard for me to avoid the sight of hotties. When I returned home I found some uneasiness because those hotties were coming to my mind. I'm am kind of fantasy guy, my initial masturbation was with fantasy.
But i resisted now it's one week over without PMO.
 

Bawanda

Member
This has nothing to do with porn.

Looking at someone we find attractive on the streets is the most normal thing in existence.






Very Good.
Thankyou I'm feeling relaxed. Actually now after a decade+ addiction I blame porn to be the cause of every problem. Even the normal things scare me.
 
It's a week since I started reboot journey 1st day I couldn't control and after that for 6 days I haven't seen any porn and diverted my mind once negative thoughts came to my mind. But I'm having anxiety any time for no reason. Can anyone relate to my condition
Yes , you do get random thoughts of how pathetic the situation is going to be
Will I never get better
It all is happening with me right now.
All I can do is hope that it will get better in sometime after few months hopefully
 

Bawanda

Member
Day 13 . But with lots of anxiety😰. I'm hopeful for good days to come.
Here is my thoughts when I saw a woman. When I saw any woman beautiful I started thinking like how will I intimate with her. I start thinking about her body shape. I think of the positions that I will try with her. These all are happening because porn has severely affected my mind. I'm ruining my relationship with girls just because of these thoughts as I am unable to remain normal. Please suggest guys
 

Oscar40

Active Member
Day 13 . But with lots of anxiety😰. I'm hopeful for good days to come.
Here is my thoughts when I saw a woman. When I saw any woman beautiful I started thinking like how will I intimate with her. I start thinking about her body shape. I think of the positions that I will try with her. These all are happening because porn has severely affected my mind. I'm ruining my relationship with girls just because of these thoughts as I am unable to remain normal. Please suggest guys
Again:

Don't count the days. That makes no sense.

It's normal to fantasize about people we find attractive. That has nothing to do with the Porn Industry.
 
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