Hi everyone,
I didn't know how to put a name of this title but I definitely need your help as something really weird happen to me. This is in the good way..
No later than a month ago, I was still super addict to porn and really hard porn. I PMO once every two days and even wanted to have few trysts with professional to realize some weird "fantasies" induced by porn. I also have PIED and get so ashamed of it
But a week ago, I had this date with a girl who do not live in the same city than me but it went so well . We have a huge complicity and it"s so rare that I decided to tell her a partial truth about intimacy.. Basically I told her before we were going to have sex for the first time that I encuenter some sexual difficulty at the moment based on anxiety and I can have no erection or not a lot. She was super comprehensive with me and was touched that I'm saying that to her and that's OK , that we can fight that together... I didnt expect such a positive reaction since the girls I used to date was mainly annoyed by that. When we come back home, I take (without saying her) a pill of cialis recommended by my doctor. Even with that before it didn't work but there, It went super well and we had such a good times of complicity and all that it's for me a kind of relieve to meet this girl.
I didn't think at all to the porn (except today since i'm talking about it and had to cancel my 'tryst"..)
The thing is i'm traumatize by the failure of having sex and my PIED. And as we are on a long distance relationship, we spoke on the phone a lot. She seems to be really open about the sex and always mention things like "I can't wait to have sex with you all night" or "Next week, i want you to .... me "' etc.. but I don't feel aroused every single minutes and I want to tell her that it's not because it worked the first time that I'm "cure". I don't feel cure at all . and speaking about sex every day remind me when I was looking at porn , thinking of it etc... Ok this is a TRUE Connexion with REAL feeling. But I'm scared that she get disappointed or that i'm relapsing on porn.... What do you guys think? Is dating when we have on a reboot process a good thing? Is having sex , having foreplay, etc... help to create connexion or in the opposite slowdown the process?
I was in a case where I needed a hardmode reboot but now we are like super intense together. This is good. But my 'dark" secret is still there ...
Thank you for your advices/comments
I didn't know how to put a name of this title but I definitely need your help as something really weird happen to me. This is in the good way..
No later than a month ago, I was still super addict to porn and really hard porn. I PMO once every two days and even wanted to have few trysts with professional to realize some weird "fantasies" induced by porn. I also have PIED and get so ashamed of it
But a week ago, I had this date with a girl who do not live in the same city than me but it went so well . We have a huge complicity and it"s so rare that I decided to tell her a partial truth about intimacy.. Basically I told her before we were going to have sex for the first time that I encuenter some sexual difficulty at the moment based on anxiety and I can have no erection or not a lot. She was super comprehensive with me and was touched that I'm saying that to her and that's OK , that we can fight that together... I didnt expect such a positive reaction since the girls I used to date was mainly annoyed by that. When we come back home, I take (without saying her) a pill of cialis recommended by my doctor. Even with that before it didn't work but there, It went super well and we had such a good times of complicity and all that it's for me a kind of relieve to meet this girl.
I didn't think at all to the porn (except today since i'm talking about it and had to cancel my 'tryst"..)
The thing is i'm traumatize by the failure of having sex and my PIED. And as we are on a long distance relationship, we spoke on the phone a lot. She seems to be really open about the sex and always mention things like "I can't wait to have sex with you all night" or "Next week, i want you to .... me "' etc.. but I don't feel aroused every single minutes and I want to tell her that it's not because it worked the first time that I'm "cure". I don't feel cure at all . and speaking about sex every day remind me when I was looking at porn , thinking of it etc... Ok this is a TRUE Connexion with REAL feeling. But I'm scared that she get disappointed or that i'm relapsing on porn.... What do you guys think? Is dating when we have on a reboot process a good thing? Is having sex , having foreplay, etc... help to create connexion or in the opposite slowdown the process?
I was in a case where I needed a hardmode reboot but now we are like super intense together. This is good. But my 'dark" secret is still there ...
Thank you for your advices/comments