Aryan
Member
Hi all,
My name is Aryan (Pen Name). I am really excited about joining this community.
I got to know about this wonderful community while listening to the summary of this book, "Your Book on Porn". After reading a few posts, I found there are a good number of people like me with the same issues and common causes for these issues, so I joined the community.
I am in my mid-thirties and I am from India. I was an introverted kid for whom his PC/Laptop was always a dear friend. I've been watching porn and fapping for the last two decades, since the days when we had to go to cyber cafes to use a dial-up connection to access the Internet.What I have gained from watching porn, reading erotic stories and thinking about all my fantasies is something I am writing about in this post.
Watching porn had completely brainwashed my brain. I gained a lot of guilt. I've lost interest in the simple girls next door, and I'm always on the lookout for tall, beautiful, sexy women who can only be found in porn videos. Especially the evil one’s in the BDSM clips.
I lost my focus on life. If I don't get enough dopamine, I become anxious, and if I don't watch porn or fantasise about my fantasies (foot fetish and BDSM fantasies like submission) and Fap, I have trouble sleeping.
After a few years of watching porn, I realised I got porn-induced ED. My foot fantasy became so big that all other beautiful things in life lost their value. I work as an online marketing professional and used to love my work, but I feel extremely distracted because my fantasies are always running through my head.
I come from a very conservative society where it is really hard to get sex and fulfilling your foot fetish or bdsm fantasies is almost impossible. You can only do it when you are on foreign land. I've only fulfilled it 5-6 times in my entire life, and I've discovered that even with professionals, penetration is a difficult task... my only option was to watch more and more porn and fap.
I tried my first NoFap last week but was only able to do it for 4 days. I'll start it again today; I can keep myself away from watching Porn, but my biggest problem is stopping my mind from fantasising and sleeping without fapping. If anyone has the same issue and a solution for the same, please do guide me. I am here searching for motivation and an accountability partner.
I've never joined a forum like this before, so hopefully this will help me to stay the course and help me get rid of my addiction. I look forward to meeting like-minded people who are also having similar struggles and are looking to get rid of this addiction.
My name is Aryan (Pen Name). I am really excited about joining this community.
I got to know about this wonderful community while listening to the summary of this book, "Your Book on Porn". After reading a few posts, I found there are a good number of people like me with the same issues and common causes for these issues, so I joined the community.
I am in my mid-thirties and I am from India. I was an introverted kid for whom his PC/Laptop was always a dear friend. I've been watching porn and fapping for the last two decades, since the days when we had to go to cyber cafes to use a dial-up connection to access the Internet.What I have gained from watching porn, reading erotic stories and thinking about all my fantasies is something I am writing about in this post.
Watching porn had completely brainwashed my brain. I gained a lot of guilt. I've lost interest in the simple girls next door, and I'm always on the lookout for tall, beautiful, sexy women who can only be found in porn videos. Especially the evil one’s in the BDSM clips.
I lost my focus on life. If I don't get enough dopamine, I become anxious, and if I don't watch porn or fantasise about my fantasies (foot fetish and BDSM fantasies like submission) and Fap, I have trouble sleeping.
After a few years of watching porn, I realised I got porn-induced ED. My foot fantasy became so big that all other beautiful things in life lost their value. I work as an online marketing professional and used to love my work, but I feel extremely distracted because my fantasies are always running through my head.
I come from a very conservative society where it is really hard to get sex and fulfilling your foot fetish or bdsm fantasies is almost impossible. You can only do it when you are on foreign land. I've only fulfilled it 5-6 times in my entire life, and I've discovered that even with professionals, penetration is a difficult task... my only option was to watch more and more porn and fap.
I tried my first NoFap last week but was only able to do it for 4 days. I'll start it again today; I can keep myself away from watching Porn, but my biggest problem is stopping my mind from fantasising and sleeping without fapping. If anyone has the same issue and a solution for the same, please do guide me. I am here searching for motivation and an accountability partner.
I've never joined a forum like this before, so hopefully this will help me to stay the course and help me get rid of my addiction. I look forward to meeting like-minded people who are also having similar struggles and are looking to get rid of this addiction.