femdomaddict
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Summary: I had my first vanilla sex experience yesterday after 15 years of femdom/fetish porn. It took effort but these forums and rebooting definitely helped. Quit porn, it’ll save you.
story:
I remember that I started out with feet porn way back when I was 9 years old. So, I’m talking about watching feet/fetish/femdom porn for almost 15 years, especially considering the fact that these were my prime years when puberty hit.
It never seemed like a problem, to be honest. Until I had my first major girlfriend when I was 21. We tried having sex unsuccessfully several times. This was because I just couldn’t get my dick up to penetrate. All I wanted was to lick her feet and eventually, we broke up.
I had several hookups where I faced the same problem. Just couldn’t get it up. I realized there was a problem and I decided on my own that I needed to rewire my brain to like vanilla stuff. So I started only watching vanilla porn (along with femdom) to start rewiring my brain to it.
Needless to say, i couldn’t stop the femdom porn. Everytime I’d tell myself I wanted to stop, but I couldn’t. Femdom porn helped me through the most stressful times and I realized I resorted to it the moment times got tough. (Including the Covid pandemic)
This year (2022), I decided something had to give. Around March I stumbled across Your Brain on Porn and realized the damage porn had done to my brain. I’d been getting turned on my more and more disgusting porn and I didn’t even realize it.
I decided I needed to quit. However, it was tough. Unlike lots of rebooters, I couldn’t maintain a streak of more than 1-2 weeks. But guess what? That was enough. I must’ve had at least five 1-2 week abstinence periods before I relapsed again for several days. But what was important to note was that, i didn’t stop masturbating cause I strongly believed my brain needed to rewire to vanilla stuff. So I’d keep masturbating with only my imagination.
I also didn’t stop pursuing women outside. Worst case, I’d get a case of limp dick and never see her again. But I needed to make myself believe I could do it.
Fast forward to yesterday and I had my first vanilla sex experience with a full erection! The happiness is unbound and so much pressure is off my chest now. All you gotta do is believe you can do it. And you’ll do it.
At this point, I also believe I have a healthier relationship with femdom that I can watch it if needed without it affecting me the way it used to. But that’s definitely not gonna be the case for everyone.
Good luck champs! I’m rooting for all of you.
story:
I remember that I started out with feet porn way back when I was 9 years old. So, I’m talking about watching feet/fetish/femdom porn for almost 15 years, especially considering the fact that these were my prime years when puberty hit.
It never seemed like a problem, to be honest. Until I had my first major girlfriend when I was 21. We tried having sex unsuccessfully several times. This was because I just couldn’t get my dick up to penetrate. All I wanted was to lick her feet and eventually, we broke up.
I had several hookups where I faced the same problem. Just couldn’t get it up. I realized there was a problem and I decided on my own that I needed to rewire my brain to like vanilla stuff. So I started only watching vanilla porn (along with femdom) to start rewiring my brain to it.
Needless to say, i couldn’t stop the femdom porn. Everytime I’d tell myself I wanted to stop, but I couldn’t. Femdom porn helped me through the most stressful times and I realized I resorted to it the moment times got tough. (Including the Covid pandemic)
This year (2022), I decided something had to give. Around March I stumbled across Your Brain on Porn and realized the damage porn had done to my brain. I’d been getting turned on my more and more disgusting porn and I didn’t even realize it.
I decided I needed to quit. However, it was tough. Unlike lots of rebooters, I couldn’t maintain a streak of more than 1-2 weeks. But guess what? That was enough. I must’ve had at least five 1-2 week abstinence periods before I relapsed again for several days. But what was important to note was that, i didn’t stop masturbating cause I strongly believed my brain needed to rewire to vanilla stuff. So I’d keep masturbating with only my imagination.
I also didn’t stop pursuing women outside. Worst case, I’d get a case of limp dick and never see her again. But I needed to make myself believe I could do it.
Fast forward to yesterday and I had my first vanilla sex experience with a full erection! The happiness is unbound and so much pressure is off my chest now. All you gotta do is believe you can do it. And you’ll do it.
At this point, I also believe I have a healthier relationship with femdom that I can watch it if needed without it affecting me the way it used to. But that’s definitely not gonna be the case for everyone.
Good luck champs! I’m rooting for all of you.
