Diary on248: Quitting Porn for Good.

on248

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I started watching porn since i was 14 found out through friends, i progressively became more entranced by it and sucked in at night in my bedroom consuming pornography. I'd watch more and more videos get less aroused by regular videos and would increasingly watch more types of content to get aroused taking longer to find a video that would arouse me. It has unequivocally fucked me up i've been unsuccessful in so far of quitting but have succeeded in 1-12 days breaks but wish to have a fervent effort in this time. I'm 20 now it's consumed my life in which i've been more disinterested and more asexual in terms of my desire for women and it's really disappointed me where i could have been fostering relationships i was festering in my room. It has fucked my attention span too i believe countless hours spent in my room waiting for my next stimulus hit. I want to have a healthy relationship with masturbation and will continue doing it albeit less often maybe a few times a week/fortnight to not get pent up and rely on my prior source of stimulus being porn to relapse again. It's frankly embarassing to be addicted to pornography it truly is a humiliating vice and pathetic as well. I want to be better and prepare for a porn free 2023. Today i start.
 

Moore0

Member
I started watching porn since i was 14 found out through friends, i progressively became more entranced by it and sucked in at night in my bedroom consuming pornography. I'd watch more and more videos get less aroused by regular videos and would increasingly watch more types of content to get aroused taking longer to find a video that would arouse me. It has unequivocally fucked me up i've been unsuccessful in so far of quitting but have succeeded in 1-12 days breaks but wish to have a fervent effort in this time. I'm 20 now it's consumed my life in which i've been more disinterested and more asexual in terms of my desire for women and it's really disappointed me where i could have been fostering relationships i was festering in my room. It has fucked my attention span too i believe countless hours spent in my room waiting for my next stimulus hit. I want to have a healthy relationship with masturbation and will continue doing it albeit less often maybe a few times a week/fortnight to not get pent up and rely on my prior source of stimulus being porn to relapse again. It's frankly embarassing to be addicted to pornography it truly is a humiliating vice and pathetic as well. I want to be better and prepare for a porn free 2023. Today i start.
Good luck on this journey mate . One day at a time and this forum and stories help .
 

on248

Member
Honestly it's getting fucking hard to be honest. Holding out 🙏. This addiction can go fuck itself. It's like Junk Food for your mind you feel a craving but whenever you have it you feel empty and sick. Going to power through!
 

on248

Member
Day 8 Finished Day 9 Today. Pretty pumped about this it's all about setting a routine instead of scrolling with a phone in bed where pornography is easily accessible choosing to read a book is better. Absolutely annoyed relapsed on Day 8 Resetting Counter oh well
 
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on248

Member
Day 2 and 3 Forgot to post! Great Relapsed on Day 3. I'm so disappointed in myself... At least it has been 8 days > 3 days between but very sad
 
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on248

Member
I feel awful i haven't been doing it lately and seem to be falling apart in life i feel lost fragmented and barely attentive to anything worth anything. I feel so ashamed i'm starting again on day 1. Life is difficult and sometimes you can feel really hopeless i don't know
 
I feel awful i haven't been doing it lately and seem to be falling apart in life i feel lost fragmented and barely attentive to anything worth anything. I feel so ashamed i'm starting again on day 1. Life is difficult and sometimes you can feel really hopeless i don't know

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