Clouds&Dirt
Member
DAY 2
Hey Everyone,
I'm 25 years old and started watching porn around 10 on my first PSP (remember those?). I've had a few good relationships but they all in SOME way have been affected by porn and PIED. Either I'd limp-dick a girl, or I'd have to think about one my favorite porn videos to get hard, stuff like that. Anyway, this journal is really just for short daily updates while I reboot for 120 days.
I've been trying to quit porn for almost 2 years now, but have always tried to rely on willpower and mental strength. This time, I'm trying something new that should theoretically make it impossible to relapse. I've locked my computer and phone so aggressively that I literally can't access porn on them. Even if I wanted to (which I don't) I'm not even sure how I'd do it. I've also blocked any and everything that tends to lead to triggers. This includes Reddit, Instagram, even Youtube. I've also given the chargers to other devices like my PlayStation and old PSP (it still works lol) to a friend, so I can't use them to relapse.
This may seem like overkill, but I'm not messing around this time haha. I figure it's impossible to relapse if I make it impossible to get to the porn, right? Plus, I also want a break from screens and social media in general so this will help with that too. I'm writing this journal because I've heard it helps, and I'll take all the help I can get.
-Clouds and Dirt
Clouds - Big dreams
Dirt - Hard work
Hey Everyone,
I'm 25 years old and started watching porn around 10 on my first PSP (remember those?). I've had a few good relationships but they all in SOME way have been affected by porn and PIED. Either I'd limp-dick a girl, or I'd have to think about one my favorite porn videos to get hard, stuff like that. Anyway, this journal is really just for short daily updates while I reboot for 120 days.
I've been trying to quit porn for almost 2 years now, but have always tried to rely on willpower and mental strength. This time, I'm trying something new that should theoretically make it impossible to relapse. I've locked my computer and phone so aggressively that I literally can't access porn on them. Even if I wanted to (which I don't) I'm not even sure how I'd do it. I've also blocked any and everything that tends to lead to triggers. This includes Reddit, Instagram, even Youtube. I've also given the chargers to other devices like my PlayStation and old PSP (it still works lol) to a friend, so I can't use them to relapse.
This may seem like overkill, but I'm not messing around this time haha. I figure it's impossible to relapse if I make it impossible to get to the porn, right? Plus, I also want a break from screens and social media in general so this will help with that too. I'm writing this journal because I've heard it helps, and I'll take all the help I can get.
-Clouds and Dirt
Clouds - Big dreams
Dirt - Hard work