For a life worth living

AJ7

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Day 23

I was working outside today when an attractive woman jogged by. I noticed her but I didn’t go out of my way to examine her. I felt some what of a flutter and a small rush but I carried on with my work and didn’t make a big deal about it. This used to send me into a frenzy and was one of my biggest triggers. I would objectify like it was the only thing I knew how to do. This made me feel anxious with a sense of lack and being deprived. Eventually, I would tell myself this is the porn shaped hole in my heart that can only be filled with PMO. What an illusion that was! Sure, I would “take care” of the urge but at the cost of feeling lifeless and depressed. Now, at the brink of turning 30, I realize the trap I was in for the past 20 years. Porn can’t fix a damn thing.
 

Brutus

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Eventually, I would tell myself this is the porn shaped hole in my heart that can only be filled with PMO. What an illusion that was!
I feel ya there man. I also had a hole in my heart that I was trying to fill with PMO. I've found that people who struggle with addictions are just trying to meet emotional needs in very destructive ways.

The solution for me was drawing closer to God and asking to feel His love. Not everybody is going to go down this path or will even believe in it but it made the difference for me.
 

AJ7

Active Member
Day 24
I feel ya there man. I also had a hole in my heart that I was trying to fill with PMO. I've found that people who struggle with addictions are just trying to meet emotional needs in very destructive ways.

The solution for me was drawing closer to God and asking to feel His love. Not everybody is going to go down this path or will even believe in it but it made the difference for me.

very well said Brutus! Yeah, if there is any silver lining to addiction it’s that people see the shallowness of it and find meaning elsewhere and possibly find spiritual fulfillment.
 
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