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    See them grow up

    6 weeks since I was last here. No desire for P or to log-in here during that time. Why? Work so intense recently and family life fulfilling. Porn creeps into me through the vacuum of boredom and unresolved relationship needs. I left no vacuum. So what's changed today? Big night out on Saturday...
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    See them grow up

    Nothing is more important to my recovery than living in the here and now. As soon as I allow my mind to wander into what-if, could have been, wish it were, wish I hadn't, if only...... then I diminish the good things I should appreciate, minimise them.... and open my brain up to fantasy and a...
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    See them grow up

    Back from holiday and checking-in. Still feeling good. I haven't missed this forum as much as I thought I would. Connection ebbs and flows, and my tide has been on the way out for a while. I'm sure I'll still journal occasionally, but I'll be here less often.
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    See them grow up

    Very much agree. Habits form powerfully for me, for good and for bad. I think of books like "Thinking Fast & Slow" and the power of the automatic mind and it's easy to see how becoming conscious of our habits can have profound impact on outcomes. Taking stock: 20 May 2020 was the last time I...
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    See them grow up

    Grateful to be more purposeful, productive and positive today. Could be because I started out by telephoning a bunch of people and having conversations, walking round the garden, rather than just going to my desk and logging on. Didn't get to my desk until 10:30. Must try to do more of that. I...
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    Started Friday July 3rd

    Glad to read that things are still good for you, TheNorman. Sport, socialising and a couple of beers, without worrying about making each other ill, sounds like my idea of a perfect summer :cool:. Fingers crossed! I appreciate that line at the end of your post... "Killing the P addiction is not...
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    See them grow up

    Early night again last night, and I didn't want to get out of bed again this morning. I'm sleeping a lot and still lacking drive or energy. Worrying trend that I need to address. Generally low emotional response to life. I need to make time for a walk today. Get away from my obligations for a...
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    When you believe in magic

    I can identify with your negative vibes, because I have a similarly flat libido, which shows no recovery after a long spell clean. I recall having days like the one above, typically around 120 days in, when I'd think "what's the big deal about this reboot bullshit, after all". I tend to think of...
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    See them grow up

    No P. Approaching a year since last binge, allowing for one-hour slip-up back in August. My actions at the start of 2020 put everything I value at risk, so I'm grateful to be functional and reliable now. It could be that COVID-19, hopefully the most universally miserable episode of our...
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    Lost case. Relapse in day 60

    I can identify with your challenge, having found it easier to stop viewing porn than to stop fantasising. Continuing with fantasy inevitably looped me back to watching porn though. I've been on here for 7-8 years, I think. This is my 4th proper attempt at healing. For the last 8 months I've been...
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    See them grow up

    I'm a mid-forties, married, professional, father of two from the UK. I lead an outwardly successful life but I?ve been hamstrung since puberty by very low self-esteem, feelings of inadequacy and a sense that somehow I just don?t fit in. I?ve learned over time that it?s some form of arrogance to...
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