Recent content by Reclamation

Yesterday I'm still in contact with people from poly and kink communities that I share porn with and I did that again today. We also have explicit chats. This one is difficult for me. On the one hand, while there is some stigma, the poly lifestyle makes more sense to me based on my...

Today marks a new start, again. After many new starts, but each time I bring with me new experience and (hopefully) all my pre-acquired wisdom from previous attempts. I'm not sure I like the word attempt though. I've recently quit coffee and, I don't like the term quit. A more accurate word...

I have been engaging in more casual relationships but in an ethical and loving way. It's been meeting my needs well. I'm unable to gain erections at the moment. Porn and psychological aspects are a big part but I also still have a long-running pelvic-floor issue. I'm dating a new person on...

I like to take unconventional paths as long as I've deeply considered them. Why? Mainly because after years of seeing the same results, nothing will change if you don't fundamentally change something. So that's how I approach recovery and the things I've mentioned above. I didn't view anything...

Thanks for your vulnerable sharing. It helps me feel support. I have connected with one of those people I mentioned but I'm prioritizing honesty and connection. I'm making sure our humanity comes first. She is a sex worker but we are dating. I've decided that I'm poly and ENM and that this...

I'm in pain but I can't feel it. Deep down, it's there. I bury it. I intellectualize it. I smother it with porn and orgasms, and dating apps, and external validation. I binge on sugar. I neglect all my needs just to meet one: Safety. But it's not keeping me safe at all. I'm getting harmed by all...

Thank you for your encouraging words and your advice. I'm very grateful because I do want a lot more support at the moment. Today I acted out in ways that are usual for me: Use of dating apps and chats with women as dopamine and self-regulation. Seeking sex. This isn't meeting my need to be...

I've had enough of the damage this has caused in my life and those around me. It's seeped into my life in so many harmful ways to a point where this isn't my own issue anymore. For example, just about every monogamous relationship I've had, has ended due to this issue. And my last partner didn't...

I most certainly have trauma. I also know there are systemic issues that lead to so many people having porn addicitons. I think the individualistic narrative needs to go. We are social communal creatures. I am not responsible for the porn industry, the ideas pushed about masculinity, women and...

I'm 29. I'd still like to reboot my brain to my real life partner. I've attempted many reboots over the years, uncovering much about myself along the way. Every time I thought I'd reached the root, issue(s), I'd find something deeper. I now believe I've found the truest core roots and solutions...

This issue and my trauma has led to issues with work that may compromise my current role. I need to take this seriously. Been getting more into trauma release stuff and meditation and have signed back up for a meditation group. I am also considering a reward system for my efforts.

I need to be clearer, I know they aren't scientific however I'm interested in nonduality and transcendent experiences. I'm also interested in structured paths. So while I will not be joining a 12 step group, I've made my own versions of the 12 steps as a extra bit of spiritual guidance in my...

I still edge a lot and when I know there may be sexual content somewhere like a book, I still go fishing for it. Otherwise no major setbacks today.

Sadly after writing this I had a slip in bed so this post took place prior to that and is no longer accurate. Success rates are going up. I've never had a great streak but I've stuck at things longer than I have before and that's saying something. I'd like to get my rates up on doing this...

Agreed. I want to join more Buddhist groups again. This is part of me getting back into the spiritual side of things again. Thanks :)