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    There is porn in this Forum (Spam). How do I delete the account. This place Is not Safe

    Something similar happened to me on YBR where a P "artist" posted on my journal. It was triggering. Afaik this user some time later got banned. It is unfortunate this things happen. It could be perceived as a violation of trust. But this is a free forum. Gabe is doing this without any...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Month of July complete. In short it looks like my inner work is paying off. In terms of pornography on screen for July: 9th July visit of P site (to delete account) 31th July the 1960s anti-porn video contained P from magazines from 1960s. attractive girls on FB show up in friend...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Also came across this. Never get tired of watching this videos. Our very life depends on everything’s Recurring till we answer from within. The thousandth time may prove the charm.
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Came across at an anti-porn video from 1960s on archive.org while looking up a greek history book. I've posted the link here without fully watching the movie. Half way they start showing up actual content of erotic magazines from 1960s. I deleted the link. Porn is still porn even if it is from...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    One meditation that is standing out from all others is this meditation. Basically I just focus on connecting with the heart. It is totally OP. I have a hard time trusting anything. This is why I started to work on Self-Trust. I noticed when I started to become more Self-Accepting. I noticed...
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    I need to up my game.

    Except for a few unicorns here and there who upon learning about the dangers of P quit cold turkey and never looked back. I'd say it is safe to say most of us are serial relapsers for a while. Spiral in single digits, then we spiral in double digits then briefly in triple digits and then we exit...
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    Journey To Nirvaana !!!

    Thank you brother. Made me cry. I've come a long a way since last year. Thank you and much love to you.
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    Journey To Nirvaana !!!

    Hi, AJM. I look at this from 2 angles. Either there is your personality trait of very high agreeableness. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agreeableness there is plenty more on this on other websites. Basically people high on agreeableness tend to say yes if this means it will avoid conflict...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Progress... Some P dreams started to happen but I just woke up before they could progress. Great! This is what I want. No P in dreams and also no P in real life. Got pretty horny in the morning. But I am able to look Lust in the eyes and say no thank you. Yes I'd love to feel sexual ecstasy...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Hey man. Sorry took some time to reply. I've been thinking about this a while. I am a bit of an extreme case. As I've never been in a relationship before or did any dating per se. I did got on a coffee date a few times. There was no "chemistry". I have no problem like talking to people just...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    20 days since last O. Feeling the arousal/horniness energy build up a little bit. But this time around I'll do my best to accept it and let it go. What is freedom? Limitless novelty, sex, sex toys, drugs, etc? Or the ability to say no thank you? I'd say freedom is being able to say No thank...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Really liking the stone idea. I am feeling some relief. Had a P "dream". Like I'd be browsing a P site in "dream" time. Luckily no NE. So it looks like it just stayed at browsing. A bit odd that I enjoyed it and felt drawn to it. Odd that in waking time. I don't even feel drawn to watch P...
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    Rebooting trough self-parenting

    Came across this https://www.fredrikebannink.com/bannink/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/Posttraumatic_success.pdf I love this: 3 WAYS OF COPING 1. seeing yourself as a victim: no active role, powerless & no control, spiral of negativity 2. seeing yourself as a survivor: more active role, more...
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    Journey To Nirvaana !!!

    Just want to mention that I really love that you are using the word Soul. As I feel like we have the visible physical body but also the invisible soul body. The health of our physical body reflects in many ways the health of our soul. So in some ways our body doesn't need fixing but it is the...
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    A way back to the light

    Just want to say I can relate quite a lot with what you wrote about Brand and addiction. In my view I attribute this to not getting the love I needed from parents in infancy and early childhood. But as adults I feel like we are able to give ourselves the love that was denied to us by our parents...
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