Thanks for the encouraging words @Phineas 808
I know I am beating myself to death here .
It shouldn’t be that way .
I see your point . I am not enjoying making those wise choices . They should be making me happy not make me feel deprived and frustrated.
Never gonna reboot that way successfully!
Day 4 today.
Although I am all by myself during the nights It’s a busy week and a lot of work during day time which helps .
Looking forward to making wiser choices during night time this week . Being already tired by evening definitely helps to go to bed instead of lurking online .
Day 3 today
Things seem so calm and peaceful today . My mind is calm and contented . But the storms and hurricanes do come and go by . It’s just a matter of time .
I Need to stay calm and peaceful keep my mind happy and contented despite the disturbances happening in my day to day interactions...
Started thinking about if I had to be on 2000th day of my clean streak by now . how would I have lived my life until today ?
What would have been my attitude towards life and day to day struggles ?
What would have been my daily schedule like ? Would I be as reckless of an individual as I am...
Indeed it is true that I don’t believe in myself, proven by the fact that I cripple under pressure far too easily be it a game of sport or a work presentation or facing a tough adversary or be it facing off or taking a stand against the addictive inner voice .
A big hole exists there inside of...
I feel there was a sense of complacency that creeped into my body and mind after yesterday relapse . My thought process was “okay I have relapsed now and on day 1 , so let me jerk off couple more times here to bikini pics then get all those urges flushed out of my mind and body so I could...
I relapsed again . This time to Facebook .
Day 0 .
what I am learning from this experience is that I don’t need a P site to relapse . no chatrooms needed . Don’t even need an electronic device . I could just relapse by playing explicit content in my mind it will play P All I could just do is...