Recent content by Leonidas

Man, almost 3 months have gone by. Crazy. Well, I'm back. Open metaphor. Still not out of the woods. This nasty piece of habit can slither its way back at any moment's notice. Like a viper staying around the vicinity biding its time until it finds an opening or an unattended entrance...

It's Sunday evening. Tired after a busy week and weekend. Just a bit of time let before bedtime. I have heard voices in the past whisper into my ear: "Comon, one little treat to some sensual video or two.. where's the harm? It'll help me deal with any left over stress", I reason...

Sorry about the bad news concerning your mom. I don't know how close/far off she is to an 'ideal' age to pass away, but most likely it might range within the expectation of a typical human life... Or maybe there was an expectation that she'd have for at least another decade and the news...

This is a great! For someone like me, hobbling my way into the realm of prayer and making my first attempts at communicating with the Lord, I think this is a very simple and attainable goal. I'm glad to know that search engine functions allow one to quickly pick out verses for any given...

Percival, I like the thought process that brought you to that conclusion. I can tell you've thought about this for a long time. It made me think of this line in a movie about a teetotaling woman who had been alcohol-free for 10 years, and yet the narrator concludes with confident aplomb: "Of...

If I may barge in to supplement your thread with one more perspective: I noticed you're "overall" frame of mind over your recent struggle and compared it against your frame of mind circa 1-2 months ago. It would seem that in the recent past you had found ways through classes and other social...

Two week update: still in this fight, regardless of the past month's setbacks. Sometimes it only takes a little whisper to push one in the direction of PMO. It takes a bit of extra effort to tell myself: "it's late, time to go to bed". I mean, who wants to miss out on an extra hour or so of...

Thanks Androg! I think in terms of differentiating between these two isn't easy for me at this time. But that time will come. As for the Wilson book, did not read it but I remember consulting his web page (of the same title) and seeing his presentation. The book seems to condense those...

Percival: I notice that much of your posts centre around the temptation or avoidance of peeking at nudes / sexy images, etc. While keeping a record of your progress on that front is good, what if you were to add a layer of something else, such as an activity you like doing, and measure its...

A bit of an absence from the board. But all in all, doing ok with this fight. Currently about 2 weeks free of porn consumption. I don't sense it as a fight (it's more smooth sailing for now), but it does feel like a fight when one is struggling against lust. I believe lust and porn use are...

I love your approach to recovery. It's unique to say the least (!!) but in my view, it is this dialogue with Christian scripture that brings so much to the table. I myself have a complicated background with regards to faith and how I was brought up, but I'll just say that I'm currently not...

Interesting comment, Androg. I don't know what to make of that either! It's all very complicated and confusing, I wish the answer was more clear-cut. As for agendas... one could also argue that quitting porn IS an agenda! I like to see it this way: pursuing goals should be fine so long as it...

Strange anecdote, the one about your mate at the club and the ipad reference. I suppose as jokes go, it was pretty harmless. You never can be sure about external appearances... sometimes the people we perceive as the embodiment of perfection are far from it. About the fear that you expressed...

I think I'll chime in for a weekly update. Not that weekly is the magical frequency the universe conveyed to me this morning via the bottom-of the-coffee-mug stain pattern. It's only a bankable in my eyes, a rule of thumb that I might adopt with room for ample adjustment. Let's not overdo...

Amazing revelation, that last post of yours. It's like a stare that pierces right through you, only it's your own eyes that are doing the piercing! I imagine you feel a little regretful for not having started those projects earlier... but at same time, isn't it something that you found out...