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Yeah totally, I’m working on identifying what’s drawing me into porn. It’s always been the uncomfortable emotions of life that have driven me back to my addiction, and this situation was no different. This is a learning process, and I’ll have plenty more opportunities to face up those crappy...

Thank you for that encouragement, I appreciate that!! It’s been almost 6 months since I’ve had a 30+ day streak, but I agree I’ve got that same discipline in me.

Day 9 Today was tough. Well, the last few days were tough as well. Started getting urges on Wednesday, and they built up until today where they really got strong. I've just been trying to live healthy days throughout this, but today I kinda let my foot off the gas pedal and was pretty lazy...

Hi all, maybe a few of you remember me from a few years back from my last journal thread. Finding out about RN was one of the most helpful things in my early recovery from porn addiction. For one of the first times, I believed my brain could actually be rewired after years of frequent habitual...

Hey all I'm back again. It's been a bit, and I went through a time where I didn't feel like journaling was super helpful for me so I stopped. Today, I relapsed though and kind of want to process some thoughts and emotions. Found myself on a computer that doesn't have any blockers this morning...

Well, yesterday was pretty hard. I felt like garbage most of the day, told my wife about it and she was of course sad, and I just felt down, depressed, and really wanted to just binge PMO. It was one of the strongest urges I've had to just give up and PMO a bunch in the day, but I overcame that...

Thanks for the comment and the advice @SimonM. It's really true, and unfortunately I know that well because I just relapsed. I'm super disappointed unsurprisingly. I wrestled the entire morning with the desire to relapse and I eventually gave in. I knew I could push through, but I just didn't...

Day 14 Hard day. First off, I peeked at P which was an awful decision. Not a relapse, but in some ways I feel like it did the same damage that a relapse would. My body had the same physical response, shaky body, heart racing super fast, started feeling cold, couldn't think clearly at all and...

Days 10-13 All solid days. It's weird, really fun externally, but internally I felt like a mess. I went on a vacation with my wife and her family out in the woods and got back today, and it was really nice to get away from the normal rhythms for a few days and connect with some awesome people...

Day 9 Definitely a harder day for me overall, but always positives to gain from each day. Work continues to be a huge positive for me lately which is a huge breath of fresh air. I feel very much in the zone with work and it brings me a lot of joy because it wasn't that way for essentially the...

End of day 9 right now and man am I ever feeling low. I really feel the desire to relapse next time I get alone but I know what's really happening is just that my body is feeling uncomfortable. I was telling another friend in recovery recently that part of healing and getting truly free for me...

Day 8 I'm feeling better and better every day! Not 10/10 internally by any means, but who actually has consistent 10/10 days? Starting work soon after I wake up is absolutely a revolution for me and my feelings about work. I get started with work so quickly and it doesn't stress me out. I am...

Day 7 Another day in the books! This one was less challenging than the day before, but still pretty hard at points. The day started off well, as I was able to get a good start on work and focus in on my tasks for the day. This day was a bit different because in the middle of the day I hung...

Keep it up @sho0fl, you're doing great. The flatline is a killer but is also more evidence that your brain is changing. Awesome that you're not experiencing any urges at all, super motivating to see your progress.

Day 6 It was a hard day not gonna lie. Full of challenging moments. Unsurprisingly, peeking at P will cause a lot of challenging moments. Starting off though, the day wasn't too bad. I am trying a new method of focusing on work by starting my work soon after I wake up. I have no idea why, but...