Today is 100 days. The longest I’ve ever went!
The past 20 days have been a bit harder than the first 80. I am not sure why but I find myself mourning my addiction.
However, acting out is not an option. I just have to deal with the uncomfortable feelings and keep open communication with my...
Today marks 65 days since I last acted out. Cravings come but are dismissed. What has helped was communication, keeping busy and going to SPAA meetings every week. Make that change in your life. I am already better than I was 65 days ago.
Day 48
Today no cravings. Just goes to show that these urges are ephemeral.
I went to my SPAA meeting and that helped dissolve the cravings. Talking to my sponsor helped too. When my girlfriend came home we talked about it too.
I just wanted to update my journal and say the craving is non...
Day 47
I had a dream I acted out last night. Today I feel urges and question how can I get through this?
I am also asking myself "Do you really want to quit this? You love it."
That isn't really what I want but I am feeling some type of way. I miss what's bad for me.
My life is better...
37 days!
This might be the longest I went without edging and indulging. My first break of almost 3 months I was on IG looking at peoples accounts and edging. This time I am completely cold turkey. The meetings have helped tremendously and I recommend anyone struggling go to SPAA.
Today marks a month since I last acted out.
I feel urges but I know acting out isn't an option. Tonight I will speak with my partner about these urges. Not strong like they used to be. The thoughts haven't accompanied these urges, its mainly just a feeling. Getting through this.
30 days today. I have a few dreams where I act out but wake up relieved knowing it was only a dream.
Today I feel slight urges and I tell myself “I can make it through today”.
I also realize that when I was younger every time I’d tell a girl I like her she would embarrass and humiliate me. I...
Today I am good. Feeling strong and motivated. It’s been 3 weeks, coming on a month. My sobriety is so important I am even dreaming about maintaining it. I have so much to lose and remind myself the feeling I felt when my partner caught me.
we are working things out, she hasn’t officially taken...
So far so good. I had a dream last night I edged and went on twitter. That was my old habit. I was so relieved to find out it was only a dream. Taking one day at a time. 18 days!
Today I am 14 days porn and edge free. It has been easy to get to this point but now is where the journey begins. I would always begin to feel cravings at this point. I have the accountability software and I’m going to SPAA meetings. I am prepared for the journey ahead.