Recent content by ulaire14

Day 7, Hi everyone, I almost let myself slip again. Need to stay more engaged so that i feel more accountable. Going to be visiting family out of town this week so that should be a huge help. I rarely get tempted when I am not in my own home. Nothing else new to report at this moment. It...

Hello everyone, I was away for quite some time. Things were going quite well for me and I thought I was in the clear. The last couple months were a quick slide back into the same old habits. It was a wake up call to remind myself this will be a day to day thing for some time. It was so much...

Day 4, Went out with the wife last night and had a really good time. I feel like it was the most engaged I have been in a long time on a date night. I think I am still making progress as bad as I have felt of late. It is good to see what I am working towards again. This vicious cycle needs to...

Day 1, Last night did not go as planned and I did PMO. I did make a connection this time though. My wife comes home today and the last time she was out of town I did PMO the day before she came home. Almost like my brain convinced me this was my last chance to do it. It still crazy to me how...

Day 5, Hello everyone things have been tough with my wife out of town but I am pushing through. Still trying to figure out what is going to get me motivated like I was before. It does feel good to have some control again and be writing. It has been stormy so I havent been able to do the normal...

Day 0, It feels like I knew this would happen. I already messed up again. I am in such a terrible mindset and really do feel like I cannot be free. It is embarrassing and demoralising. I wish i could get back to the willpower and mindset that I had just a couple months ago. I just need to find...

Day 3, Feels good to be back on the wagon. I am already in a better mood and woke up easier this morning. It is tough though because I can just feel that my motivation level still isnt as high as I would like it to be. I knew this would not be easy and that I would have to try many times. It is...

Day 0, Hi everyone. I have been out of here for a bit. It really feels like I lost motivation to keep trying to quit pmo after a few setbacks. However, today made me realize I cannot give up. I want to get my life back and be free. I am going to try and approach things differently--- I just...

Hello, My wife was gone this weekend and I was real concerned. This is one of the toughtest times for me when my wife is gone. I did get a terrible urge tonight but called my wife to see how she was doing. This greatly helped. She will be home in about an hour and I will have made it three...

Hello, It has been a little while since I last wrote. Things have been going well since i went on vacation and have been spending alot of time with my wife. I have noy had much time to be tempted or have stray thoughts. I will start writing more now that I may be less busy the next couple...

Congrats on day 4. You are not alone in that most of your P consumption was through the phone. This has been my biggest hinderance. If I did not need certain functions for work I would replace my phone as well. However, I think you may have inspired me to leave my phone with my wife when I am...

Hello, Things are going ok. I have been sick for a few days and have had a tough time sleeping. Been taking some meds to try and help. I have had some urges in this time and do not know if I messed up once or if I had a bad dream as the meds are quite strong. Either way I am still moving...

Day 0, Well I am starting over. I am not sure what the trigger was this last night other than I was not feeling very good? It seems like as soon as I start to feel I am out of the grasp it finds a way to catch me. The only thing I did notice is that it did not escalate to videos. Maybe I am...

Yes, the dopamine rush takes over so easily. It feels really good to hear from other people and know just how not alone we all are in this struggle.

Day 19 and I think you are right. I feel so rested and at peace when travelling. I had a really good vacation and had moments where I felt like a better version of myself. My wife even made a comment that it seemed like I was back. It may be helping that I am resisting the urges even though I...