Recent content by Escapeandnevercomeback

Relapsed on day 3. Sad and lost.

Feeling lethargic, low dopamine and shit... Day 1 but I'm fuckin tired, man.

Yes, of course, it's not going to be easy but you got this, you're too far to go back now.

:love: Really well done brother. You got this, This time is different.

Relapsed again on day 2

I guess the only good thing from all those 3 relapses in one day is that, at least, I didn't do or say anything ridiculous while under the influence of alcohol. I didn't send any stupid messages, I didn't write anything ridiculous here. But everything else is shit.

The sad thing about this, when it comes to me, is that I do it trying to feel great. This has been an obsession of mine for ten years. I want to feel great when I use my drugs, I want it to be worth it and when I end up not having that much fun, it's absolutely bullshit. It's about wasting a...

Relapsed again. I had caffeine and alcohol relapse yesterday too, after 2 weeks of abstinence. What surprised me is that I got a bottle of vodka, expecting to knock me out cold and it didn't happen. I got less drunk that I'd thought I should've after 2 weeks. In 1 second of weakness you can fuck...

binge...

relapse

2 days

Day 1 I relapsed yesterday. I actually relapsed 3 days in a row and now I have all the low dopamine symptoms that you could read about. I don't know, I don't get it. I know the state I transport myself in after relapsing but I still do it anyway, keeping in mind the misery doesn't seem to...

Well, yes, given my past maybe 6 months, 7 days is a big thing, as pathetic as this sounds cause 7 days is terrible streak. It's too small.

I'm not doing better. Still heavily invested in porn and PMO. Relapsed 3 days in a row. I have this low dopamine feeling; lethargy, high anxiety, overthinking and all that. I'm fuckin trapped, I can't escape this shit. Maybe what I know is that I don't know shit. Maybe I actually don't know how...

Thanks, man. I like how you said all this. Yes, unfortunately, I want to stop after 1 PMO if I happen to relapse but I always see myself ending the day with 4-5 PMOs. It is super rare for me to end it with one. I know that deep inside, since I've discovered porn addiction a few years ago, I've...