Recent content by Brooks1542

Nope. PMO'd like 5 times in 24 hours. Back on the horse again. No point dwelling on my mistakes. I feel shitty enough as is.

24 days. Went away this weekend and noticed that my YouTube feed has content on it that I had not seen in a while and that the comments were back. This made me realise that maybe my porn blockers were down probably because of the different wifi connection. I looked at porn for about half an...

21 days :) Things are going well. On other, less positive note... I should probably start thinking seriously about rewiring but I feel it's too big of a step for me. Even before puberty I held this deeply seeded belief that a girl would never like me for who I am and I would always be alone...

Up to 14 days PMO free atm. Keeping up the exercise and trying to sort out my diet.

The reasons of my continuing porn use, apart from any brain chemistry type reasons, was mainly boredom and fear of intimacy. I would have a wank at a similar time every day, not because I was horny but because it was something to fit into my empty schedule. The thought of masturbating gave me...

Take it day by day. You've made the biggest step of all which is starting the journey. It's all little steps from now on.

I don't know how accurate this is, so if I am in the wrong here feel free to correct me, but in my mind giving up porn was like doing exercise and eating a good diet to get into shape. After 6 months of solid, consistent exercise, if you stop exercising for a short period, you don't just return...

If you have time I'd check out the podcast on this post that someone else posted on here recently. https://forum.rebootnation.org/index.php?threads/20755/ Gives, I think, some detailed information regarding addiction and the relationship between pleasure and pain in the brain.

That was a really good listen. Made a load of notes. Very informative. Thanks for the post @Flesh

Back to day 0. I always falter after I post some pseudo helpful advice that I realise myself one day and completely ignore the same advice the next day. Gonna try and not be all doom and gloom about it. I'll probably relapse more if I get all unhappy about the situation. On to the next streak...

I've been reiterating to myself that having a wank is just momentary pleasure. It does not solve any problems and actually perpetuates some of them that I'm trying to overcome. Saying that to myself seems to help.

Day 9 Very close call today. I was getting curious again and I googled a pornstars name on my phone. Somehow the blocker had lost some functionality and the internet was no longer porn free so PornHub popped up immediately and I clicked, as you would. I was scrolling for like 2-3 minutes and...

Day 7 Still going strong. Daily exercise is keeping me in line. However, the past couple nights my guard has dropped and I've been fantasising about porn when I've been trying to get to sleep. I haven't been masturbating at all to such thoughts but it's still not a good idea to do. Just need...

You make your own rules here. I will say that I think if you masturbating to thoughts in your head that are similar if not same the as the porn you would watch to get off, I'm not sure the brain knows the difference and the unhealthy brain activity continues. Some guys claim they can whack off...

Thanks for your comments guys. Day 5 Since I made the decision that I am going to exercise everyday, I have had improved control over my impulses. Haven't been that inclined to watch porn, and when the thought of porn enters my mind, it's importance is diminished. I'm going to try and keep up...