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    Return to reality

    This week has been so tempting for me. I returned to work and have found it hard to motivate myself to work. This, I think, played to my stress buildup. I looked at a few things here and there on my phone, rationalizing that it was not P. It was the same old pattern, I noticed. Me trying to...
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    Return to reality

    Guys, I am here we some updates. Holiday season was great. I really enjoyed every moment of it and lived the joy of it. I don't want to make any new year resolutions. I am happy with what I am doing now, I just want to continue that. I opened up to my friend about my past and went in detail...
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    My journey to sexual healing ✨

    Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year S. May you find all the love and joy, this holiday season. Keep rocking it out.
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    Return to reality

    Fellas, I am doing great. Life has not been better for me. There is so much more time I have now to do things, I always wanted to do. There are always those triggers, and moments of grief that can make me weak, but I face them them. I face my emotions and I am at peace with them; they let me...
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    Return to reality

    This week I tried to answer the question 'can I have an erection without porn?' and the answer is yes. That is a big win, because it was not true before. The stimulus to natural touch is back. I guess, this will improve further over time. I also tried to expose myself to some triggers to look at...
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    Return to reality

    Thanks S, for your constant support.
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    Return to reality

    The watermelons were super! I cut them to cubes with love; put some salt and then ate them. The juices are so pleasurable. It is a reward I deserve; every 13th :) welcome to the real wold.
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    My journey to sexual healing ✨

    super duper! I should simply repeat what you wrote on my thread - your connection with yourself over time has grown and it shows. These points look very well thought over. Good luck with your voyage. Just curious - why only three times a week exercise ? :P
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    Return to reality

    As day 90 of my reboot closes to an end, I feel a lot of gratitude and peace. This was a tough journey for me - the triggers still remain, but the urge is relatively easier to subdue now. I acknowledge that this will be a much longer journey than 90 days. But this has also been a life changing...
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    My journey to sexual healing ✨

    you deserve all the love and joy. congratulations on the 90! celebrate it. what is your plan, next?
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    Return to reality

    Monday I get the watermelon reward! Did I use porn today? NO What were my triggers? None How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? What am I grateful for today? good podcast Day counter! DAY 89
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    Return to reality

    Here is the DOPAMINE framework to recovery by Anna Lembke (https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/11056.html)
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    My journey to sexual healing ✨

    welcome to day 90! live it out.
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    Return to reality

    here is a summary of the mechanism of addiction https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/10994.html Did I use porn today? NO What were my triggers? None How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? What am I grateful for today? great Yoga class. Day counter! DAY 88
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    Return to reality

    Today was an attempt to summarize our never ending avoidance of pain. https://vidvan13.livejournal.com/10627.html
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