Recent content by Squidward81

It is 1:10 am and it’s where the rubber hits the road. Instead of looking up anything or getting out of bed to get in trouble, I’m telling you all & myself, ‘I don’t need porn!’ That’s all.

Yeah, I feel like I too have tried so many options like “don’t keep thinking about it or talking about the issue cause it just keeps your focus on it” but after this last year, that hasn’t done it either. I’m just gonna try at it again. It’s nice to have a community of people who understand...

Hey everyone. I have not been on here for a year and I’ve been trying to deal with this on my own. I was struggling with having online friendships and not having people in really know me. After a year of trying, it has not been really successful. All the while, having a really roller coaster...

Hey man. I haven’t been on in a LONG TIME and I read a bunch of your journey and it’s just so inspiring. Yes, there are really messy parts but man, you are so courageous. And brave. And determined. I’m so inspired by not letting your struggle define you, your honesty with your fiancée and this...

Hey Jerry! I am super encouraged by your attitude & faith. I’m struggle this week and it’s powerful to know that there are guys who are holding on in the middle of it! Thanks for sharing!

Today has been tough and it’s only 6am. I’ve been trying to keep busy and not find myself alone with my phone. I also haven’t been connecting with my wife so I’m now in a spot where I just want to comfort myself with porn. Which in a way is selfish. I want to just take care of myself, no matter...

Its been 3 days since my birthday. And its been kind of a roller coster. In general, i think i'm in the best place i've been for a while. Emotionally, I get into such a big funk around my birthday that i then try to soothe through PMO. but this year has been different. And i do like it. I'm in...

its currently 5:23 and its raining! My new routine is to go for a run at 5:30 but i'm not so down with running in the rain...yet. I'm working on putting new routines into the normal times that are a struggle. So, write this journal in the morning. don't bring my phone to the bathroom. today, i...

I don't know why, but just you saying that gives me hope! How awesome will it be to say i did the whole year without porn. and its possible. Thanks for the encouragement!

So, mornings are tough. first off, i'm physically ready to go so theres that! Second, my family is all asleep so it give me a chunk of time alone. Third, there is a surprising amount of online action happening. I guess this what happens when you get older. I spent so much time in my 20's and...

Happy Birthday to Me! I had a thought this morning that I have a family that thinks i'm special. My wife and kids want to spend time with me and love me. I do not need anyone or anything else to tell me that i'm desirable or to feel wanted because i actually already have it. I think alot of my...

This is my new journal. I have not been on here for a while and something’s have gotten better & other things have gotten worse. I have been noFAP for a while and if it happens, I really just brush it off and move on. I fully believe that it has lost a hold on me. as for porn, I still struggle...

I hear this and understand it completely. It’s such a vicious cycle and I’m tired of it! Hope you are able to get the support here that you need/want

Hey man. I've sort of fallin off the wagon as well. I like your goal of making it through December. We ve got this!

Jerrytx, I am so encouraged by your post. I'm sorry that you indulged but it's true, you are better than when you first started. I PMOd today and I have been so down. But I didn't go to God, I've just been feeding myself the lies. Your post just snapped me out of that. We are forgiven. We are...