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Day 1. Managed to stay clean yesterday. I'm back here again today so far clean. The goal for the rest of the day is to not look at porn, nor masturbate, nor fantasize in my head, nor play games on my phone. Another goal is to log back onto the forum tomorrow and make a post.

I was but I've been slack for the past couple of weeks. I'll start going for runs again, I enjoy those. New goal is to simply log onto this forum and leave a post two days in a row. The goal for today is to not mastrubate nor look at porn and to not play games on my phone.

Well, I'm back again. That's something at least. The best I've been able to do the past month is one or two days and then relapse. The only way from here is up, so let's give it a go. Today is Day 0. I'll try to live today as the best version of myself and intentionally stay away from MO, PMO...

Day 0. Recently been stuck between being clean for a day then relapsing the next day. Not very impressive but that's the reality of this addiction. I relapsed this morning when I woke up. My current goal is to be clean for the rest of the day. No porn, p-subs, fantasizing.

Been doing much better ever since I've made some appearances back on here but not a clean streak. Going to say Day 1 again. Slowly dragging myself back into the light and having more and more days clean. Today I commit to a porn free day, no lingering on NSFW content on social media, no porn...

So, for the record, I did follow through on my commitment that day and I was clean. The problem was that I didn't come back the next morning. Day 1 again. Today I commit to a healthy day. A porn-free day and a porn substitute-free day. I won't look at porn, I won't scroll through social media...

Day 1 Been going through ups and downs lately. The last week has been very bad regarding staying away from porn. Coming back here to get back on track. Humble beginnings again. All I will do is take it day by day and not worry about the big picture. Today I will have a porn-free day. I won't...

I had a good streak going, I was clean for a few weeks and then relapsed today. I'm overseas right now and have been propositioned by a few different girls for sex but declined to be faithful to my girlfriend. Maybe some pent up sexual frustration. Very busy at the moment. Got to stay away...

Got a day 1 on the board. Feeling hopeful.

I relapsed again today. Not doing very well. Stuck in a relapse cycle every few days. Desperately hoping I can break the cycle and get back on track again. Can't let this shit drag me back in because that's what I'm letting it do to me right now. A little ashamed to be here making these posts...

Day 3 clean. Thanks, just got to keep going. The goal today is a pornfree and psub-free day. No masturbation is also the goal too. Today has the makings of a great day, no reasons why it can't be. See you tomorrow.

Day 2 clean. Urges are very strong. But they're just that, urges coming from my addicted brain. The goal today is a porn-free day, psub-free day and masturbation-free day. My girlfriend is coming over tonight, we can cuddle and be intimate but I'll avoid pursuing orgasm. See you tomorrow.

Day 1 clean. To be honest it's a little more than just day 1 but I haven't been "squeaky clean" because some fantasizing has been going on in my head. Anything which activates the porn pathways is a porn substitute and because I indulged these thoughts today might as well be day 1. Here we are...

I was doing pretty well but then relapsed again a couple of days ago. I will commit again to posting here on the forum everyday. That's what got my last streak off to a good start so I'll use the same technique. My dick still worked with my girlfriend but already perceptibly a little bit not...

Day 4 clean. My dick still works. I maintained and erection during sex for a very long time. So the erection-side is fine still but I've got severe delayed ejaculation. I feel really shit going to bed this evening. Some stuff has blindsided me. I'll survive. See you tomorrow.