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    Don't want to backslide anymore

    You are absolutely right - I just slipped momentarily looking at pics on Google images. Somehow allowed myself to believe this wasn’t a lapse. But I stopped myself and came to my senses, and immediately came back here to admit my weakness and renew my commitment. Life is much much better without...
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    Amor Fati (Recovery Journal)

    I sympathize with you a lot. And I know you can overcome this for yourself and your family. What I have found for myself - don’t know if it would be for anyone else - is that I have used porn to drown painful feelings. I don’t mean necessarily profound feelings of sadness or despair; even a...
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    Don't want to backslide anymore

    Several years ago, I made the decision to practice celibacy. In my teens and early twenties, I used porn and masturbation excessively - often to numb out painful feelings of various kinds. My decision to pursue celibacy pretty much ended what I would call addictive/compulsive behaviors, so that...
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