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    Breakthrough

    Hello everyone Today is day 27. I think I made a breakthrough or a realization. After having a talk with my wife, and the latter that day this is what I came to realize. First and foremost I want to acknowledge how much my addiction has hurt my wife. Now here I go. Question? Why 18 year...
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    Coming to terms

    Hello everyone Today is day 25 and it a day of pain. Today I come to the realization of what and where my addiction has led me and the pain it has cause numerous people I love. Today I realized that my relationship with my wife is more than likely not going to survive, I realize that I have...
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    My journey to be a better man.

    Good work Just remember the end goal look ahead. But find a way to recognize when you are about to give in to your addiction. Go for a walk, call someone to change your thoughts. You need to distract yourself. But best of remind yourself why you need to change.
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    24 Days WOW this is hard but getting easier

    Hello everyone This is day 24 Wow. It has been a emotional roller coaster. Guilt for how it has affected my family. Fear for what the outcome may bee. Insecurity for where I may end up. Shame. I want to tell everyone what and why this situation is happening. Fear of my family’s reaction if I...
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    24 Days WOW this is hard but getting easier

    Ihateporn Member Today at 8:47 AM Add bookmark #8 I wish I could help you with the questions you have! What I can say is that the shame, self hate, and anger I felt every time I would turn to porn is unbearable. I love my wife more than anything, I still get goosebumps when I see her now...
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    24 Days WOW this is hard but getting easier

    I wish I could help you with the questions you have! What I can say is that the shame, self hate, and anger I felt every time I would turn to porn is unbearable. I love my wife more than anything, I still get goosebumps when I see her now after 18 yeas. My addiction made me isolate myself...
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    24 Days WOW this is hard but getting easier

    I did that when she questioned me about having an affair. I just think that not admitting that I had o porn addiction to myself and to her caused this to be where it is today. I have explained everything to her today. Totally honest with her. It was hard but I did it. Not sure she believes it...
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    My journey to be a better man.

    i believe that exercise, diet and replacing you breaks with something other than poor is great. I might be a good idea to instal a porn blocker on your computer, smart phone and tablet. Willpower is great but if you are like me you may need that extra help. Get someone to input the code for...
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    Honesty

    Hello I am 52 years old and I have been using porn since I accidentally found my dads stash when I was 8 or 9 years old. Looking back and even today I didn’t realize what this was and what this did to me today. My partner has finally had enough. It has ruined her self esteem, her self worth, and...
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    24 Days WOW this is hard but getting easier

    My wife believes I was having an affair. It is and was the furthest thing fro the truth. I had no interest in anything but getting my fix from porn. I don’t know how to explain the my addiction to my interest in human involvement away. I just wanted my fix.
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    24 Days WOW this is hard but getting easier

    Hello I have finally realized that I need help to get my life back together. I have sabotaged my relationship with my wife. I think I have pushed her to the limit. She has been trying to put up with this for years. But as we know in our porn world and mind we just filter threw all tipe of porn...
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