Recent content by Carpaccio

Over a month now passed - 36 days to be exact, and still going strong. No porn. On occasion, I havent been able to resist looking watching a few bikinebabes on TikTok. But there isnt any porn or nudity there, so I allowed myself that. Sex is so much better now, I easily get a boner just...

Busy week, so no time for check ins. But now 3 weeks past, and no relapse. Keeping with the program. @joepanic thanks for sharing, and yes quite similar. Although I have experienced PIED, I could take care of if with Cialis or Viagra. But that wasnt actually the worst part for me. It was more...

Day 14, still keeping strong. I feel that I dont have too many difficulties keeping away from porn. But I do have some some kind of unfulfilled feeling, but guessing thats the energy I need to channel somewhere else. But will keep going

Thanks Gold. I guess I am fortunate in the way I realized what was going on before it started getting in the way of my relationship. When I read other journals here, many are far less fortunate in that way. Its now day 9, and I am keeping well clear of porn. MO is probably going to be a...

So this is day 8, and keep going. Had a good Saturday. Wife and I had planned for some adult time during the daytime. As I had felt a bit flatlined during the week, I was a bit apprehensive, and took a Cialis in the morning to avoid the fear of ED was not becoming a self-fulfilling prophecy. I...

As porn was always a substitute for me, I never really fantasized about enacting porn. I grew when women wasn't shaving shaving every inch of their bodies, so I was always more turned on by natural women and I would be looking for that on those screens, and the theatrical mainstream stuff didnt...

I am with @Tryinghere on this one. It defies the purpose to break away from relationships to go into celibacy. The purpose is to reconnect with the sexuality you had with a partner and experience the pleasure in that (not to forget having a happy life with your partner in general), its not to...

I’ve had the same exact experience. Even thinking she wasn't doing it right. But pretty sure its in the brain. Dopamine is what gets a BJ epic, so just need time to rewire.

I realize I am kind of in a different position reading many others here. As you mention, @Gold , porn was never tabu in my relationship, so there was never any feelings of betrayal. On the other hand, abstinence might cause that feeling, particular if she was to feel rejected or that porn is...

I’m a reboot rookie so most people here probably know better than me. But I also read posts which express a lot of shame and guilt, and I read some people who seem almost wanting to go into hard mode in self-punishment to come out a better and less sinful person on the other side. I dont think...

So now on day 5. Big thanks to @guitar1968 for the encouragement. I decided that MO is off the table and kept that up. Not been too difficult as I’m a bit flatlined, which I think has to do with stress at work and not withdrawel from porn. In some way thats kind of helpful since I am less...

I’m 56, married for over 20 years, I have a beautiful wife some 8 years younger and very desirable and I love her. Our sex life has had ups and downs, but in the last 7-8 years was getting very good, regular, enjoyable and stable. A bit experimenting every now and then. My wife is very...