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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    I am still on the journey to recovery. I haven't been able to be completely clean everyday but I am night and day better than I was one month ago. The crazy thing is that there isn't much stopping or standing in between Me and freedom. I need to continue to relinquish this adiciton. Give it up...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Yesterday PMO relapse bigtime. Did around 8times. I have bounced back today and am recommitted to escaping pmo and mo and p. I have relapsed but I have also made a ton of progress and feel that urges are much lower. I have added a blocker to my phone and computer. I am so thinking ofnjooning...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    PMO 3 times yesterday after a week of good progress and 3 weeks of progress, with some failures but a lot of progress. I wish I could be perfect, but that is just not the case. I will say I made huge progress the past 3 weeks. My unit haha is a lot healither down there and I can see how life...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Today another test. Sufferd form back pain from New job sitting I am using a type if chair that might cause it so I tomorrow I will ask to see if they have a different type of chair. In terms of mo and pmo I felt like f I am really down today so I can just rub one out. And think if a girl. It...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Tonight I feel the deep, maybe deepest urge to pmo and mo to a girl i once dated. This is the real deal, I could easily go MO and PMO right now and my urge and pang is really strong. This is another turning point i think. On one had i could easily go do it. On the other, it seems ive never known...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Doing good today, urges are much lower. Still some thoughts about MO, but not as great. The urges seem to come and go quicker and are less powerfull. Obvioulsy there is still a thought to give in, but I keep returning to why I quit and the huge benefits and gains from quitting vs the terrible...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Today I MO once and PMO w/instagram pics once. I was pretty happy to have gone 3 days without PMO or MO, I had overcomes some pretty serious urges, and used some different activities to find some dopamine and relaxation in the world. In my thoughts to slip, I told myself, hey you just...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Today I wanted to write about some of how I am feeling. Since quitting PMO and MO , and learning more about the science of the addiction, and the nature of the PMO, I have noticed that I have a pain/anxiety in my heart and stomach that I typically use PMO to soothe. As part of PMO I can also...
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    I am a chronic pornography Addict

    Sounds like a really tough environment. Yeah good thoughts on how its shouldn't matter if you are a guy or girl or whatever. I hope you can find some good people there or find some way to get some peace there cause that sounds tough. Keep going bro!
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Day 1 and 2 (started over) Started over after a relapse. In one sense I felt like I was just failing but in another I feel that I am solidifying in my head that I can't live with PMO and MO. Its a drug, a disease. I think when I do it now I can really feel the brain fog and total brain...
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Thanks buddy yeah I will try the filters! Thanks for that really good comment man, that is encouraging. I am back on track these past two days! Peace and thanks a ton
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    I am a chronic pornography Addict

    That sounds like a really tough place to work. Women like that are not good to be around in my experience on many levels, especially if youre a dude and they don't like men period. They wont change. Best to distance myself from them. Hope your week is going good
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Day 6 PMO 3 times one at night 2 this morning, MO once. I felt i was doing good last night but then as i was trying to sleep, I had the opportunity and went for it. Then this morning i slipped again and went for it twice. In the mornings it will help to just get moving. I also am in between...
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    And so the journey back begins…

    Encouraging man, you can find a new outlet, porn is a lie, the addiction makes you think you need, You have it all within your beautiful self
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    Reboot/Recovery Journal 30yr Old

    Day 5 Night Enjoyed the afternoon. I spend reading the EasyPeasy book. It was helpful in showing me how the addiction itself creates the urge. When I have an urge, its not really that I truly need to orgasm or look at women. The PMO addiction tricks me into creating that need in order to start...
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