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    Attempt number one thousand? A 22 year old's latest attempt at rebooting

    I think that freeing your mind (slowly but surely) from a porn addiction makes you discover a lot of things. What led you to porn? What can life be like without porn? You now have some more space in your life without porn - what will you fill it with? It can certainly be confusing, but figuring...
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    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 674 (no PMO) Day 159 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes)
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    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 664 (no PMO) Day 149 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) I MO'ed a couple of times last week. Not great, but not bad, either. Whether it was healthy libido or my misguided mind going for the wrong solution to problems, I don't know. :cautious: In just over a month's time, I will be 2...
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    Attempt number one thousand? A 22 year old's latest attempt at rebooting

    Every guy has their own definition of "relapse" I suppose but if you didn't PMO, then I don't think it counts as a relapse. Anyway, glad to hear that you're feeling good and have regrouped after straying from the path. As you say, don't let a small setback undo your great progress.
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    Porn is not an option

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    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 654 (no PMO) Day 139 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) My brain: Oh, you're upset about something, hey? Okay, I know you're not looking at porn anymore. But why don't you look at some porn substitutes? Or think some sexy thoughts? You know you want to. It feels good! Yeah, that's...
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    Porn is not an option

    When you're going through hell, keep going! The coward part might have been true in your moment of weakness, but that was then, this is now. A coward would run away and back to a stupid cam girl and flush everything down the toilet. A man would stand his ground and face the truth - just like...
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    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 640 (no PMO) Day 125 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Overall I'm doing very well, but some stress and anxiety over the last week resulted in urges to MO and/or look at or think about porn. Each time I have quietly told myself "don't do it". No new insights, just proud that I've...
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    Attempt number one thousand? A 22 year old's latest attempt at rebooting

    Good work, Maple. And yes, channel your energy into other things. Declutter your home, work out, arrange your shirts in alphabetical order, count leaves on trees. Do anything that isn't sitting in front of a screen with the lure of porn tempting you. The urges will go up and down, speaking from...
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    Attempt number one thousand? A 22 year old's latest attempt at rebooting

    Rebooting is a long and weird journey, with many temptations. Stay on the path and keep killing it, Maple!
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    Crawling from the wreckage

    Day 633 (no PMO) Day 118 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) Slowly but surely unwanted sexual thoughts are fading away. Even though it wasn't that long ago, thinking about PMO or even looking at porn seems like remembering something from my childhood. One interesting thing... As a...
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    Porn is not an option

    Hey Blondie, that was an epic post and I appreciate the honesty. In fact, it sounds like something I might tell myself! ;) If this harsh self-criticism is acting like a cold shower and leads you to something more positive, then it's a good thing. Just be careful not to get too mired in being...
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    Attempt number one thousand? A 22 year old's latest attempt at rebooting

    Great to hear this news, Maple. Excellent work on 90 days. Sounds like you're doing all the right things. Keep going!
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    Unbusting my balls

    This is something I think we all go through. It's tough not to refresh, but you have to do your best to shut those thoughts down. When it happens to me, I usually take a few moments and repeat my mantra: Forget them. Forget their names, forget their faces. You never had sex with them. They are...
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    Crawling from the wreckage

    Yes, @GBS maybe needs to click the "edit" button on this one! :) Day 622 (no PMO) Day 107 (no looking at porn or porn substitutes) I continue to do my best to shut down unwanted sexual thoughts (and unwanted thoughts in general). Our minds are like monkeys: always scurrying around, jumping...
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