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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Thats not a CSAT talking, it's my wife....
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    One year today... But things aren't exactly great. Can't find a CSAT that takes my insurance, and that is one of her conditions in the "Ultimatum". She (my wife) claims I have made no progress, since I still get tempted from time to time. For some reason she feels that even being tempted at all...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Tomorrow will be 8 months... YAY !!!
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Greetings TipToe, and welcome to the club. Still trying to figure it out? Yeah, me too, and if I live to be 120 I'll still be trying to figure it out. It's when we stop trying to figure it out that we have thrown in the towel, so keep trying... Man, all the things your wife said, my wife has...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Are any of you married guys wives members of a betrayed spouse facebook group(s)? If so, How do you feel about the advice they give?
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    Is an Internet-based Career Possible?

    Hmmmm.... I am actually in a position to give you a semi informed answer. I am a composer. I write music, I construct videos to accompany this music, and I spend a LOT of my time online, either working my Youtube channel or culling stills and video clips to construct my videos. Then I spend a...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    I'm good
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Kind of down in the mouth today, but... I am well beyond the stage wherein a bit of depression brings thoughts of regression. Not a consideration. Being bummed out is a normal thing for humans to experience. As long as it doesn't become a permanent state of mind it's nothing to fear. Persevere...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    7.5 months sober.. All is well.... The slow wheels of change keep grinding. Although the improvement rate increases very slowly, the results are still measurable, and noticeable. I AM a lucky man.
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Mornin'... Steve, former porn junkie, seven and a half months sober. Felt like a royal shitheel for the past two days. I try not to dwell on the negative effects my P use had on all concerned, but sometimes reminders pop up. Be they from outside influences or someone close, they pop up...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Afternoon guys. Just woke from a nap. The wife had messaged me some excerpts from a thread on the betrayed spouse group she frequents about a woman who caught her husband using again and the fallout associated with. I know my wife lives in fear that I too, will relapse, otherwise she would not...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    *******************************************TRIGGER WARNING****************************************** Okay, you guys responded positively to "None the Wiser", my music video which exposes the evil's of porn consumption that we don't see or take into consideration. So... None the Wiser is the 2nd...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Happy Thanks Giving everyone... Ready to stuff myself just like that bird in there in the oven. Persevere Brethren
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    The Shame

    No worries. I don't feel attacked. I stopped feeling that way quite some time ago. And I never really looked at it, as joepanic also said, as choosing porn over my wife, it was more like a dirty supplement, which I now realize I didn't ever really need, but that of course does not an any way...
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    Honoring the Ultimatum

    Steve. Junkie. 7 months plus porn free. 6:19 AM. Woke early (my sleep patterns are weird). My wife paid me a super compliment yesterday. Made my day/week/month. My wife is "on the spectrum" or as old schoolers put it, she has Asperger Syndrome. It is difficult for spectrumites to compliment...
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