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    A Righteous Struggle

    Hi, yes thanks for the message this came straight to my email inbox and served as a reminder I needed to do a roundup. I've now finished my Ninety Day reboot! Today is Day #91 technically, counting from the 11th July when I restarted my first reboot. Out of 90 days (July 11th - September...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Day #37 - Tuesday 16th August I knew this was going to happen before it started. As soon as the dam breaks, it all flows downhill. A binge was inevitable. I allowed for alcohol, which then subsequently lowered my inhibitions, my self-control, my resilience - I succumbed to porn last night and...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Thank you, I admire your optimism. Indeed this is a war with many battles. When your stuck in a rut it can feel endless, but it is just "missing the mark" temporarily, and it is our task to stay on course and keep fighting back. God knows our struggles and will never burden us with more than we...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Day #36 - Monday 15th August Relapsed but not fully, managed to mitigate the disaster slightly. Last night I had a wet dream and then it allowed for the Chaser effect this morning. I submitted to MO but did not turn to P. It was more about relieving the pressure, though I'm ashamed I had to...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Day #29 - Monday 8th August No relapses, although there have been occasional dreams where sexual themes have crept in but I've maintained my streak from mid-July. I got some good validation from an attractive girl recently at the supermarket, it felt like she was checking me out, and I got the...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Day #18 - Thursday 28th July '22 It feels like such a gulf between the events of a few weeks ago and where I am now, in a positive sense of feeling far removed from the corruption i fell into recently. I'm not feeling my best by any means, due to multiple other factors, but I am certainly...
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    Cam Girl Addiction: From Financially Savvy to Buried in Debt

    Have you considered joining a group like Sexaholics Anonymous? Perhaps you can find some support groups either face-to-face or over phone/video call that could help you on this journey, besides this forum: https://www.sa.org I think this forum is good but only as a supplementary aid. For more...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Day #11 - Thursday 21st July '22 Just a quick update - things have been going well, no relapses and back on my routine mostly. Although yesterday I got quite sick, which I suspect was due to a combination of factors, one of them being recovery from PMO certainly. I had it back in June when I...
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    Done with this shit.

    Keep going, stay busy and don't remain idle - one of my biggest challenges is idleness, it's when we're most vulnerable to relapse. You can do this.
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Day #5 - Friday 15th July '22 11.09 Aiming to be less self-indulgent moving ahead. Also to focus on basics of improvement, including daily routine, exercise, nutrition, sobriety, and my Prayer rule etc. Through succeeding in these areas, I can serve others more effectively and with compassion...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Walking is a great idea. I'm close to bedtime here in the UK, so I'll save it for tomorrow. You reminded me of this video I found in the past few days, it is a game-changer:
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    A Good Warrior once was weak too.

    Welcome. I'm new here too Peter, glad you are trying to defeat this pernicious habit once and for all. I'll follow and support you when I can. A few things to share below that may help you on your journey into a PMO-free life, things I have discovered in the past couple weeks: Instead of...
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    Done with this shit.

    @ghandalf55 Following on from post above, just started working through this: https://www.recoverynation.com/recovery/recovery_workshop_expectations.php Wow, it absolutely nails the recovery process. I just skimmed through it but tomorrow when i get more time to focus, i will read it more...
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    A Righteous Struggle

    You're right, I need to see a friend and get out of my own head. This previous week or two has been a real nightmare. Thanks for checking in bro, we can do this.
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    A Righteous Struggle

    Day #4 - Thursday 14th July '22 13.32 Relapsed once more last night. It felt very empty and was not all that pleasurable. The end of my binge, I hope. Today I've cleaned my room, vacuumed, took out rubbish and freshened up a bit. I need a haircut, which will help with the transition to being a...
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