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    Let's do this

    Day 8 Life is stressful. The urges to PMO are really strong but I am getting through them. If anyone is reading this, how long have you found it to take before they get easier? I'm taking them more seriously than before as I have learned from my relapse before.
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    Let's do this

    Day 6 and 7 My life is so stressful right now. My brain has tried to convince me that PMOing to relieve the tension is a good idea. I'm not letting it have any of it. I will continue to cut out tech as much as possible. Even though my streak is only 1 week now, I have only done PMO twice in...
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    Let's do this

    Day 5 Minimal intrusive thoughts again today but I got through them! Instead of downplaying them like I did during my least streak, this time I tried to get them out of my had asap. It worked! Cutting out the tech seems to be the way to go. I am now trying to only use my computer and phone...
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    Let's do this

    Day 4 Once again I cut out the tech today and it seems to be working so far. Generally spending less time on the internet is so far the way to go! Minimal intrusive thoughts but I pushed through them by considering why I'm going down this PMO-free road.
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    Let's do this

    Day 3 Cutting out tech seems to be the way to go. I had a few cravings today but I found it interesting that they weren't for PMO. I got them out of my head asap though because thoughts like that are a slippery slope and I'm approaching this with a bit more experience now.
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    Let's do this

    Day 2 Today was good. I cut out as much tech from my day as possible and it made everything so much easier. I didn't run into any triggers. Leaving it here because I don't want to jinx myself.
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    Let's do this

    Thanks for the insight TryingHarder! You mentioned far more things than I considered and I have thought about these points individually. Thanks so much for all the help and kind words so far :)
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    Let's do this

    Day 1 I made the exact same mistakes as I did two days ago and ended up relapsing again shortly after writing my post. I feel so stupid because I literally did all the things a second time that I had noticed caused me to relapse. Today I can say for certain I made it through without PMO. My...
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    Let's do this

    Day 1 Today was good. I had cravings later in the day but downplayed them and didn't dwell on them too much. I have good reasons to want to quit porn and I'm going to try once again. Hopefully this is the last time I ever need to start a streak!
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    Let's do this

    Day 0 As you have probably already guessed, I relapsed today. The strongest emotion I feel is surprise. I just can't believe that I watched porn. While it's hard to say there are positives here, I'm an optimist and can see a few things: I made it 13 days porn-free which is a much better than...
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    Let's do this

    Day 12 No intrusive thoughts and generally not feeling too horny. Life is good!
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    Let's do this

    Day 11 (Day 2 of no MO) I have decided to stop MO for a while. Even though my most recent time - the only one since the start of my reboot - was healthy (I think), if I want to recover quickly I believe it's better to stop. After reading Blondie's most recent post on TryingHarder's thread about...
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    Let's do this

    Day 10 Life is good and the P-related thoughts seem to be around far less now. I'm still not letting my guard down! No horny or intrusive thoughts today. I'm still not feeling bad about the MO yesterday which is a good sign but I think the goal of waiting at least a week before any more MO is...
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    Let's do this

    Day 9 Today was good. I ended up doing MO, but I don't feel bad about it because: > I seriously thought about my long-term goals before and afterward (not using porn) > I was feeling genuinely horny in a totally healthy way > There was nothing unhealthy about the experience (my thoughts were...
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    Crawling from the wreckage

    Congratulations on the 100 days TryingHarder! Just like you said to me, if you can make it 100 days PMO free, then you can also make it 200 days. Best of luck! PS. your profile pic is fantastic :)
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