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    I want to live.

    if i can do it. you can do it 100%. stay strong. do productive stuff or watch good movie play games. remember how you feel afterwards. its worth to stay strong. lets do this together. cheers
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    my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

    Day 11 - no mw -flatline - today is a party, i will only drink as little as possible as being drunk/hangover is very dangerous for me -> will prepare myself mentally to overstay any urges if they arise BW: 78,05kg Goal: 73kg BF%: 15,5% Goal: 12%
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    my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

    Day 7 Exactly one week since my relapse. Back in the days, i was fapping pretty regulary on each 7th day. To be exact it was more or less every sunday. When i felt lonely and bad because weekend was over and a new week will begin. Not today tho. I dont have any urges. I feel as focussed as...
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    Porn is not an option

    First of all gratz on the big win here. I feel you. i have been there. Especially in times were we weel bad, our brain wants to badly seek for any type of feeling good and remembers that there was this one thing that could give us short term gratisfaction. Our brain never forgets what gave...
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    On the way...

    You are the man. GZ on overcoming this urge and going for a run. Trust me your on the right path. Before you brain gives up on your porn addicred brain pathways its strenghtens them from day 7 to around week 4 of your reebot. So its normal that this can be the toughest time that you are going...
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    my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

    Day 3 I feel as motivated as i have maybe never been before. The recent relapse showed me that my fetishes are porn induced and that this is something that i trained my brain into. I felt horrible afterwards and this is not how its supposed to be. I went through some strong "chaser effect"...
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    Conquering PIED (My Last Day One)

    go cold turkey for some month until you realize you are more sentizized again to normal stimuli in real life. Then find a lovely female that is caring and understanding and helps you "rewire" and grow your original vanilla taste. I had a somewhat big streak of 100+ days no PMO behind me and i...
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    Porn is not an option

    @Blondie My advice for your procrastination which i also suffered hard in my studies is to plan each day in blocks. Planning and scheduling the day sounds like a prison but its actually the opposite. Its Freedom. Build in "rewards" after 30 minutes of concentrated productive work. That reward...
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    my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

    Thank you Blondie for these words. They help a lot. Lets carry on!
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    my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

    Day 0 It sadly happened. I relapsed. Was looking up a female user on reddit that shared my fetish. It was most stupid idea ever. I knew it and still did it. Her threads where overwehlming and i M to that. I felt so bad afterwards. The disappointment is real but i need to move on. My streak...
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    Prison Break

    You got this 💪
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    Starting over to never have to start over again

    You already made 5 month once. Thats pretty impressive. Im sure you can exit porn forever as well. Lets get this done 💪
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    my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

    Day 133 -no MW - was at a lan party yesterday - we drunk alcohol - later when trying to sleep i got a few urges. i realize again that i need to minimze alcohol as hard as possible - i think being drunk/hungover is the only state in which i can relapse at this point - sometimes when swiping...
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    Porn is not an option

    teach this kids in school! 10/10 teaching skills. Couldnt agree more
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    my journey, 25, male, PMO since ~11, 100% ED, done with this shit forever, it did enough harm

    Day 129 - had a wet dream last night again. it was weird because i was dreaming about my fetish but i wasnt aroused by it like i normally was, i unconsciously had the feeling that this is wrong, and i was also not participating i was more like watching it sceptically, i think this is a good...
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