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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 24, another crazy week, genuinely can't believe it's nearly been 30 days without IP! It's gone very quickly, I've been trying to busy myself also which I think helps. Had some huge personal news... I'm going to be a dad! Very exited, it was planned so no one is freaking out haha. Still...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 17, been really bad skipping my journal again. I keep starting it and then not coming back to it! It has been very busy in and out of work, I'm hoping next week is quieter. BUT, usually stress equals need to escape equals IP and I'm happy to stay more than clear. I've even stopped following...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 11, work was mental and having friends over this evening so not had a chance to think about much else. I work office hours which makes contacting the doctors etc a complete ball ache sometimes. Sounds negative but still feeling good, my partner went out earlier which again, would usually be...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Thanks! I'm hoping it's months max. I'm happy to be patient though. Day ten, feels good to type that. May be the longest ten days in a very long while I've not looked at IP. A lot more interested in my partner which can only be a good thing, of course I'm trying to moderate that with urges...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Thanks for the comments, means a lot! Day 9 of my journal and not using up IP, keeping busy has been helping a lot. Energy levels are back to normalish. I'm still getting like I guess flashback urges, but they are infrequent so I'm sure they will pass. Do need to get back to some people next...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Shit, day 8 as I missed a journal! Be be sure it's for the right reasons though, I had a day off with my partner and we went to another town, we had lots of fun and ended in romance. It was a long time getting home, wrong train etc etc... Feeling strong still, anixety seems to be better but...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 7, so a whole week and feeling pretty solid. I've got a few contacts to get back to, councillor and a hotline I spoke to. Positive but a bit anxious about conversations as I don't want to bring the anxiety back to the surface. I may update later, if not it's not due to weakness just a busy...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day six and once again feeling better. My partner went out today at lunch which would usually be prime time for IP, I felt a bit tense but no real temptation, sat in the garden for a bit and played with the cats (we have 2). Still a bit anxious but again, trying to be kind and press on. Very...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 5, feeling MUCH better today, the anixety is much better. I think having work as a distraction helped, made sure I exercised for the first time in a week and that also felt better. Still not feeling urges to watch porn but very horny. I may ask my partner how she feels later but, and I know...
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    Making a start, ashamed and worried

    Thanks daybyday - I totally should of said I did that almost immediately. My partner put the child settings on the internet and explicit content is not available on my phone 🙌
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 4, doing ok, anxiety is still bad but better each day. Depression is also kicking but I'm doing my best to stay active. Not really thinking about porn to be honest, I'm feeling paranoid about having sex with my partner, mostly because my head is a mess... I've also been having a case of...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Thanks, I think trying not to blame myself is very hard but becoming easier by the day! This is day 3 and I feel physically less stress and anxious. I spoke to my best friend about my problems yesterday evening and my partner did the same, we both felt positive after and you have to have...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 2, I'm taking advice as I can and trying to overcome my physical and mental stress. I've got an appointment for therapy next month and have been in touch with local councillors who I hope I can spend some time working with. I will be speaking to my best friend later, my partner will be...
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Thanks takeactionnow! I do feel absolutely exhausted but I'm not sure if it's the addiction recovery, stress or guilt. I will try to focus on those things!
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    My first and hopefully last journal

    Day 1, I'm going to say day 1 so I can count from here. It's been a really draining day but I'm doing the right things. I spoke to a charity about my concerns related to my porn use and that eased my mind a bit, I'm not a bad person I've just had my head up my ass for too long. That was a really...
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