Recent content by seano

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    Hardwired from self-destruct

    Keep it up! 💪
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Did not end up viewing anything (y)
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Day 20/60 Things have been going well. Limiting phone use has been huge in avoiding triggers. I realized I follow a pattern of slowly allowing myself more concessions towards phone use until I pass the point of no return and view porn. For now, being as sober as possible from phone use is best.
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    Exciting days!!

    Same 🤣
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    Signs he is watching and lying about it?

    Again, this is very similar behavior that I have exhibited when I relapsed. I didn't realize it at the time, but with my gf having a strong feeling I was using and me lying and getting upset at her, I was gaslighting her to not believe and trust herself. I wasn't intentionally doing this. I was...
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    Signs he is watching and lying about it?

    Sounds like how I act when I relapse. Not saying he did. Just saying
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Update: Strong urge to look at some sexually stimulating content on my phone. Feeling a bit anxious for the work week ahead which has historically been a trigger
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Day 18/60 I saw a hot girl at the grocery store. I tried not to look, but did end up briefly checking her out. I don't want to make girls uncomfortable in public, but damn its hard not to look at a hot girl. Maybe this is just my brain being fucked up by porn and over sexualizing women. Or...
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Sure thing, thanks for the encouragement!
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    Escaping the status addictus...

    I think it's awesome you are staying away from caffeine and processed sugars as well as porn. They all produce similar effects of increasing dopamine in the brain. I've been thinking about cutting them out as well but am worried about cutting too much out at once
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Yes, exactly! It feels like it trips the same pathway in the brain. It's funny how we can convince ourselves it's innocent 🤣
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Day 17/60 I was scrolling on my phone and saw a couple triggering pictures. Also googled an actress to look at pics of her. Again, nothing explicit or overly sexual, but still this habit of searching for sexually stimulating content on my phone needs to stop. I'm playing into my addiction and...
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Day 15/60 A few weeks ago I started smoking weed again, and last week I started smoking tobacco with my weed again. I must say it was enjoyable and an overall positive experience. However, for me smoking weed, especially mixed with tobacco can become too compulsive. I end up using it numb out...
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Day 12/60 Last week I exercised two days and gratitude journaled 4. This week I wasn't to exercise 3 days and gratitude journal everyday
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    Porn use wreaking havoc

    Day 11/60 My gf has been happy that we are having sex more often. I've been enjoying it too. When I was in the throws of the addiction, we were having sex infrequently and it took a toll on our relationship
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