The gaslighting, sneakiness and lying is devastating. As a SO I have been manipulated by my partner and fell down the rabbit hole three times. But the fourth time he said that Porn addiction doesn't exist. That was the end of falling for any more of his mental gymnastics. I said p is fine to use...
This is my first post. I am replying here because one thing you said summed up the entirety of my feelings for my male partner who is an addict: my perception of him has changed. The way that I see him as a man (we are a straight couple in our 50's), has shifted. I just don't see him the same...