Recent content by MashuSan

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    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    Hi Yogi, just wanted to thank you and let you know I found a downloadable pdf and gonna go through this book in the next few weeks. Thanks. What made me want to download it is the language you used when describing those terms, I'm a firm believer in reframing and language is a huge tool for...
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    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    Hey Zaraki888, I must admit yeah I was able to do a good 2-3 months worth of 'Monk Mode' during those 7-8 months I did my streak. It started creeping up on me though, I didn't know my triggers and I was really horny most of the time, but then there would be other times where I would be...
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    Yesterday, We Had a Long Talk

    I've done something bad with my partner last week and wrote about it too. Posted it in the Porn Addiction section and it helped me recover and heal from that. However, it left my partner with some questions and she's been not her self this last whole week. So I knew we had to talk somehow and we...
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    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    Hah that's excellent, I've started a list and I've been adding to it. I only have four so far but those are the ones that've struck me in the last few days, I'm definitely sure there'll be a lot more to come. I'm ready though 💪💪 gonna upper cut that son-of-a-bitch in the jaw like a Mortal Kombat...
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    I Think I did Some Wrong Last Night

    Yes, I felt bad and last night I had a big conversation with my partner too. Since then she's been a little different, distance and I recognized that she was battling an internal conflict as to what she would do and what she wouldn't do to please me. I opened up a little more to her about my...
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    I Think I did Some Wrong Last Night

    Last night I made my girlfriend do some kinky stuff and kind of act out some of the porn that I was watching. Quick context setting: I relapsed a few days ago after a good month and a half and went through the whole shame/guilt/disappointment/anger/resolve/ motivation cycle over the last few...
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    **Accountability Partner Requests**

    I’m 31 too, fiancé and no kids yet but I want them and I want to be able to look at them in the eyes and tell them the dangers of porn one day by setting the example myself, I’ve been trying to quit for almost 10 years and it’s affecting my sex life now that I’m with the same person. I’m fed up...
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    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    What happens after? Let’s say I find all my triggers, what do I do after that. Just try to avoid them?
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    Hardest Part Is Restarting

    The hardest part about stopping your porn addiction is restarting. I’ve been on this forum in 2015, 2018 and now again. For almost 10 years I’ve been trying to quit and I still haven’t been able to get through a whole year without porn... lol can’t even get through 8 months. my life has...
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    Life Level Up

    It's been well over two years since I've last posted. I tried once to go a year without any PMO, or even just porn. I've been struggling with reboot ever since I've read all there is to know on YBOP... that must have been back in 2009. It's almost been a decade and I still have never reached my...
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    Rise and Shine

    My name is Matthew. I'm addicted to PMO, and I've realized it for a couple of years. Only recently have I started taking action to make real changes. I'm not happy with myself right now and I want to beat this thing. I also want to give as much as I can. This is my ___ attempt. Albert Einstein...