Recent content by harpoon

Hey, it's been awhile :) For the most part over the last 14 months i have been porn free. At the beginning I went hardmode for nearly 90 days and if I relapsed I just got on with it. Hardmode was key for me. Looking back i can see i was very compulsive. I had very little self control...

Thanks for reply :) I will have to make some changes and educate myself some more. For the most part I had a pretty great year. This is a new problem. The post orgasm emptiness is way too familiar and while the sex is great, I just hate that empty feeling afterwards 😕

Hmmm.... its been awhile on here but this is interesting to me. Sex is great and we do have fun but I find that I do feel empty very quickly after sex finishes, like after a porn binge. Unfortunately I just always want more and porn thoughts and cravings are back. We are very affectionate to...

It's been awhile and I guess i need to start journalling again because things aren't going as planned. My gf, and it's all fairly new, loves me and loves having sex with me. Sounds great doesn't it, the dream. The reality is its a nightmare. I feel like i'm in a porn video and the underlying...

OK, just about ok.

So I haven't been with my gf in a couple of days and yesterday I started to give urges again. Today is worse. I do prefer being with her over porn but when we can't ne together, eventually I will have cravings and obviously my go to would be porn. I actually love kissing her and being with her...

.....however I am free from porn, and that at the end of the day is why I am here. Also it's coming up on my Dads first anniversary and the family (especially the women) are stressed out moreso than usual. It's been quite a year really. My Dad passed away last May. I vowed to never watch...

You would think that I have it made.... a new girlfriend whom pretty much does anything sexual to please me. The problem is that eventually you look to your emotions and I have started to look at mine. I really care for her but I just don't think i'm in love with her. We have so much in...

Ya know I struggled with this hole "affair" thing for awhile but their marriage was finished and she is free to do what she wants. We all have the same friends is the issue that's putting every1s nose out of joint. In her husbands eyes I am the only reason his marriage failed but In reality it's...

In general, I'm pretty good these days. My mood is good and life is good. I have come a long way on this journey. Believe me and have faith that this addiction does actually get easier to manage and sometimes its not there at all and life can be awesome. I wouldn't advise taking my route and...

Its life and I realize that every1 has something going on but I'm not woe is me, it's just what I'm going through. The biggest problem I find is that I can manage my own feelings about things, it's ok. Its other ppl, their stress that affects me. It's a vibe and an energy that changes my mood...

It seems like we are sprinting towards my Fathers first anniversary. My life changed forever that day. I tried to break free from porn that day and lasted 9 stinking days. Months of pain. I have fallen out with my brother about this. He brought covid to my Father's home, unknowingly in his...

I just don't know. I still have my own dreams.

In my weakest moments I will be on the beach in the wind and the rain, walking and staying sober. In reality I draw some strength from these walks and definitely some peace.

I'm still here and still fighting but I do feel very lost atm. I'm not ready for this big dose of commitment that is heading my way. Sure I loke her alot and we have fun together but I don't feel like I thought being in love would feel. Is it enough to fancy someone and enough their company...