Very solid weekend, followed by a Monday morning wobble. That's become an established pattern and I wonder if it's one that other "recoverers" experience? I logged-in to my newspaper at the office and found myself tempted by some articles that were definitely in a "grey area" that I'd be wiser to move past. Because as I read in "Bob's" journal earlier, allowing myself to look at something even vaguely off-message, especially on a monday morning, or at another time when my resolve is weak, just amps-up the withdrawal pain and the temptation. And then I have to waste a lot of energy resisting the temptation, rather than just getting on with a positive day. So I think I may have to try to avoid catching up on The Guardian until after lunches. I'm not a fan of UFC as a sport, but I read an interview with their commentator "Joe Rogan" a few weeks ago in a weight training magazine and he said something like "I focus first on delivering my obligations, because once I've done that, I can go about the rest of my life free of guilt and anxiety", and I like that message. I'm a natural prevaricator, so it really helps me to get my obligations dealt with first, and then I can do other stuff without feeling like a loser.
Anyway, to conclude this little ramble, I shut down The Guardian's "Culture" page, resisted The Chimp telling me to go look for some juicier morsels, and came on here to get my head straight. Really helped, especially clicking through to a blog suggested by one of the Mods, Gracie, which had some great stuff in it.
In other news, in line with my efforts to make my non-P life more stimulating and challenging, I've signed-up for Mandarin lessons. Part of "The Life Wheel" approach to achieving balance that I founs so helpful as part of The Hall Recovery Course.
Right! Onwards an Upwards. I have a day to conquer ;D