NewMan10
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Hello everybody,
I will start with a brief history of what happened. I have been addicted to PMO for more than 10 years (I am currently struggling to stop this disease, I am already more aware of the triggers, I have relapsed a lot of times). For 4 years and until now I am in a beautiful relationship with my girlfriend. But about two years ago (where I didn't even know or acknowledge that I had a problem / PMO addiction and where porn was consuming me too much, spending hours and hours looking for new content of all kinds) looking for content from escorts, one day I decided pay for a service. I went to the apartment where he was staying and that did not last more than 10 minutes. From that moment I felt devastated inside, with a great moral pain, totally sorry for what I had done. I gave myself much more to God, I went to church to confess my sins, I told my parents this and since this happened I became more aware, even after this I found the RebootNation forum and realized that I had an addiction. For about 20 days I stopped PMO, but I relapsed into PMO several times, but more and more aware of what made me relapse and with all the attitude to stop this evil. Also a few months ago I told her about my addiction and she said she fully supports me. The fact is that I am in a great dilemma: to say or not my infidelity to my girlfriend (I have not told her yet).
I recently realized that my father was unfaithful to my mother with a female companion, that made me feel like an insider (because she doesn't deserve this). I know that he watches porn and in one way or another that is also affecting him, well, but in this post I am not going to talk about his problem, I will focus on mine. Now, learning about this, he reminds me of what happened to me two years ago, and again I feel great moral guilt.
Do you think I should tell my girlfriend about the escort? I recently relapsed, I thought that when I completed the 90 days to tell her (Would it be better after 90 days?). I don't want to lose her and I don't want the beautiful relationship we have to change or that she mistrusts me, but I also don't want to keep this moral guilt that I have, because I think it is important to be honest above all. The truth is, I love my girlfriend very much, I want to continue with her always and keep her loyalty, she is an incredible woman in every way.
Help me please.
God bless you!
Hello everybody,
I will start with a brief history of what happened. I have been addicted to PMO for more than 10 years (I am currently struggling to stop this disease, I am already more aware of the triggers, I have relapsed a lot of times). For 4 years and until now I am in a beautiful relationship with my girlfriend. But about two years ago (where I didn't even know or acknowledge that I had a problem / PMO addiction and where porn was consuming me too much, spending hours and hours looking for new content of all kinds) looking for content from escorts, one day I decided pay for a service. I went to the apartment where he was staying and that did not last more than 10 minutes. From that moment I felt devastated inside, with a great moral pain, totally sorry for what I had done. I gave myself much more to God, I went to church to confess my sins, I told my parents this and since this happened I became more aware, even after this I found the RebootNation forum and realized that I had an addiction. For about 20 days I stopped PMO, but I relapsed into PMO several times, but more and more aware of what made me relapse and with all the attitude to stop this evil. Also a few months ago I told her about my addiction and she said she fully supports me. The fact is that I am in a great dilemma: to say or not my infidelity to my girlfriend (I have not told her yet).
I recently realized that my father was unfaithful to my mother with a female companion, that made me feel like an insider (because she doesn't deserve this). I know that he watches porn and in one way or another that is also affecting him, well, but in this post I am not going to talk about his problem, I will focus on mine. Now, learning about this, he reminds me of what happened to me two years ago, and again I feel great moral guilt.
Do you think I should tell my girlfriend about the escort? I recently relapsed, I thought that when I completed the 90 days to tell her (Would it be better after 90 days?). I don't want to lose her and I don't want the beautiful relationship we have to change or that she mistrusts me, but I also don't want to keep this moral guilt that I have, because I think it is important to be honest above all. The truth is, I love my girlfriend very much, I want to continue with her always and keep her loyalty, she is an incredible woman in every way.
Help me please.
God bless you!
